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right now im so confused i seriously dont know wat the hell is going on wit gregg. like every time i try talkin to him about us he just changes the subject. like idk wat he wants right now n all ive been wanting to do is spend time with him but he doesnt want that he seriously is so involved with everything else especially his friends maybe he doesnt want wat we used to have i just wish that i knew. like seriously i just wish he could read this n see wat is going through my head. like i miss just laying with him and holding his hand and actually having someone there for me every second that i need them. maybe thats not what he wants but thats wat i want. like i dont want it to go back to exactly wat it was last year like i still want to have time with my friends and go out but i dotn think wat i feel for him is wat he feels for me n if it is i dotn think he feels as strong for me. idk i just wish i new wat he felt n if he doesnt want to atleast talk to me n then he needs to tell me that instead of making me think that he doees. like im sure he does like me because he wouldnt do everythign he does for me if he didnt but i mean i need to no if were talkin or wat the hell is going on cuz if he doesnt want nuttin going on then i need to no so i can stop trying to make it happen. idk im so confused i just hope that he likees me as much as i like him n im def no saying i want him to be my bf right now i just wish we could have something. like im always going ot love him and think of him as mine still even though hes not but thats just because how much he means to me and i would do anything to have wat i used to have with him and i never realized wat we had until now. maybe he knew before me but i really miss not having him there right now. n im not just running bac to him becuz theres no one else becuz there is n i stopped talking to all of them but i really realized how much i love him idk i g2g n i need to figure this whole thing out ... XOXOXOXO