confessions...
I know I'm totally ripping off Usher with my subject, but i've got to confess a few things...I'm not doing this for fucking attention cuz I could fucking care less...I don't care if anyone comments...it's just for my personal satisfacion
Right now...I'm just so fucking confused, down on myself, and frustrated...I have this one big (big to me) problem, that is giving me a major attitude, and that attitude is creating a lot of smaller problems which are ruining my day(s)...i just can't wait till i can resolve all this tomorrow night...
God...and my friends aren't helping much either...probably cuz I'm being such a bitch to them (sorry btw)...i wanna tell them what's wrong and how I feel and everything, but they either:
a.) don't wanna hear it
b.) don't take me and/or my problem seriously
c.) don't care
d.) don't know i'm upset
I've even tried explaining it to one of my friends, but I couldn't really get much out...i dunno...i guess i'm a bad talker...but when I'm Livejournaling, there's just no fucking stopping me!! :) God...and what I did get out to my friend, she basically had a "too bad, so sad" type of attitude towards it all...but that's definately not her fault...
because no one understands how i feel
none of my friends do anyway...
because maybe they had to deal with this problem once...but not anymore...and it was so long ago for them, that they probably forget how bad it feels...
god...
how can the one thing that makes me soooo completely, head-in-the-clouds, giggly, happy happy happy, be the same thing that makes me feel this terrible???
if anyone has the answer to that question...comment