Awakening PC - "Ash" (Dawud Al-Rahman )
It's late. And all's quiet save the ticking of the small silver alrm clock on my nightstand, and the sound of her breathing.
The weight of her head on my chest is comforting. As is the warmth of her body curled up beside my own.
Sinner.
I don't even know how long we've been lying here
This woman is -not- your wife, David
and at this point i hardly care.
Shameless lecher.
It's been a week now, since I've known sleep.
And everynight she comes here, leads me into this all-too big bed and lays beside me, trying to ease me into slumber.
And every night, she only succeeds in tumbling headlong into sleep herself. And I lay here. Thanking the Most Merciful that I haven't yet had to go back to my dreams. Back to facing this monster inside of me
.One in the same.
You and I.
David..
She stirs and clings to me. Her face a mask of anguish for a breaif heart-wrenching second. And I just hold her to me until it passes
Pervert.
Ill-intended Filth.
Sinner!sInNEerAdulTerErREiSinner...
How easy would it be to slip into her dreams. To find what it is that hurts her so and kill it.
Thou shalt not..
Destroy whatever it is that makes this beautiful creature
..kill
suffer.
You'd take advantage of her like that?
But I won't.
What I will do is get out of bed, make ghusl and pray Fajr as it's now 4AM and it's about time I started my day anyway. desperation.It gives me pause before I slip out of bed.
Her arms reach out as they always do everytime i pull away. Pulling me to her in an oddly compelling, yet weak, near-somnambulant desperation
The cold shower brrings my wits back to me as I ponder all that's happened to us as a Consillium.
The late Zues Priest
Didn't he know Abu?
This issue with the Seers after Dusk.
Find them. END them! Unless you're too -weak-, David.
David? Daaviiid... you're so weak...
I need to talk to Patrick
Fuck him!
I need to do what I can to help.
You can't save them, David. You can't save anyone. You're useless... but you already know that... don't you, David?
But first I have to help myself.
One by one I will identify my Flaws.
You can't.
Erradicate them.
Too weak..
Weaken the rot inside me. and finally confront the monster that lies beneath..
YOU'RE the monster, Daviiid.. you're the wretched Sinner.. .. the Demon..
I will destroy it. And if I can't at least I'll put it in it's place. Chain it down and make it my slave.
You'll faaiill...
Prayer is done and I start to pack for the Inter-Faith convention in Buffalo
Hypocrite!
I'm only scheduled for Friday night so I might even be able to make the next gathering of the Consillium.
She shifts again and for a moment i think she'll wake up. She doesn't , though and I come over. Drape the blankets she's kciked off back over her shoulders and kiss her forehead.
A short du'a is made and I head out the door.
The sooner I leave, the sooner I can get back.
And I'll be with you..Davviiid.. the whole time..