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I'm so miserable. I want to go home and stay home. I constantly feel like shit. I hate working. I'm sick of being alone all the time and I'm sick of spending my days doing homework or watching movies. I have no friends here, and that's all my fault. I fucked myself over.
I'm so sick of being uncomfortable. I want to feel content again. I want to be happy and have people to be happy with.
I don't know how I got so stressed out over night. I woke up and realized that I didn't schedule time off for next weekend, but that can easily be fixed. So why am I freaking out? Probably because I don't have work done for Psychology. We only have it once a week, but it's easier to fall behind when you miss a class(As I did last Friday).
I just want to be able to fucking relax for once without risking my grades. I always feel like a failure.
Does anyone read livejournal anymore? No, probably not. I am secluded in all areas of my life.
I can't wait for Kris to get here, so maybe there can be something to make life here easier, something to make it somewhat normal. Sometimes I wish my family would just all move down here so they would be close.
God, I can't believe I'm going to have three more years of this...
I'm so sick of being uncomfortable. I want to feel content again. I want to be happy and have people to be happy with.
I don't know how I got so stressed out over night. I woke up and realized that I didn't schedule time off for next weekend, but that can easily be fixed. So why am I freaking out? Probably because I don't have work done for Psychology. We only have it once a week, but it's easier to fall behind when you miss a class(As I did last Friday).
I just want to be able to fucking relax for once without risking my grades. I always feel like a failure.
Does anyone read livejournal anymore? No, probably not. I am secluded in all areas of my life.
I can't wait for Kris to get here, so maybe there can be something to make life here easier, something to make it somewhat normal. Sometimes I wish my family would just all move down here so they would be close.
God, I can't believe I'm going to have three more years of this...