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"Yeah, no one said life was easy..... But no one said that's nothing's supposed to happen right. No one told me anything...."Suicide is more appealing than ever. My so-called best friend has stopped talking to me again, leaving me even more depressed and unable to control tears. I cry almost anywhere now. Bus, work, walking down the street. My
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If only you could find a way to love yourself, to convince yourself of your value and to stop needing other people (read:men) to convince you of that.(Not that they even do that,since you seem to have a knack for selecting men that make you feel even shittier in the long run.)
Then I truly beleive that all your problems would be solved. Truly and from the heart. Sadly, no one will love you if you dont love yourself or think yourself worth existance. This is a sad truth. You attract what you put out there, and what you feel you are worth is what you get.
It took me many years and therapy to come to believe this, but since I have, things have looked way up for me.
Please..you need to retreat from the world and take time to learn about yourself as a person and why you have such self destructive tendencies. You should really go for some meditation clasess at a Budhist temple, they are free so no excuses, if nothing else you can say you put up a fight for your own sanity.
Maybe a move to Calgary is not a bad idea to shed the old and start anew, but going there for a man who treats you like a disposable diaper is not the right reason, you would just be uprooting your negative habits and continuing them out West.
I hope you know I say this cause I care, not to be pushy and bitchy.
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