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Recently, I feel like I've been up and down emotionally a lot. Bad eating habits, no exercise outside of work, frustration with my boyfriend, and stress about money has all caught up to me at the same time. I'm so worried about money, but for some reason I can't help my slightly excessive impulse spending. For some reason, lately it's gotten harder than normal for me to curb my spending. Through looking back through a friend's blog, I found some help in the form of some classes. They're faith-based and at churches in the area. The only thing is, I'd be going to them by myself. Everything I do is by myself. Sure, I'm going to have a roommate soon (as in, today) but it's not quite the same as if my boyfriend lived somewhere closer too. But he can't right now, and that's kind of starting to strain things. I guess I thought it was more definite that he was going to move here in a year. It's more of a he wants to.. not definite at all. So if he doesn't move here, and he doesn't want me to give up what I have here to move there, what's going to happen? I can't stay in a relationship that has no end to this long-distance. There's no way to have a relationship. You can't move forward with that type of relationship. That frustrates me. Am I wasting my time or is this all for the better? Why have most of the relationships I've ever had been long-distance? I'm starting to think something isn't right..
This stress about money has always been an issue, but as I'm trying to make it on my own, I find it harder and harder. I don't want to rely on anyone else, but I'm having such a hard time making it. I wish I could find a second job to be able to help make ends meet.. I can't even pay my own bills right now. I just paid my cable bill for one month that was a month behind, as well as half my cell phone bill that was a month behind too.. I don't know where rent money is going to come from, but luckily I only have to come up with half of it now. Even so, I don't exactly know where that money is going to come from. I'm so frustrated.
This stress about money has always been an issue, but as I'm trying to make it on my own, I find it harder and harder. I don't want to rely on anyone else, but I'm having such a hard time making it. I wish I could find a second job to be able to help make ends meet.. I can't even pay my own bills right now. I just paid my cable bill for one month that was a month behind, as well as half my cell phone bill that was a month behind too.. I don't know where rent money is going to come from, but luckily I only have to come up with half of it now. Even so, I don't exactly know where that money is going to come from. I'm so frustrated.