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I hate it when people like to judge you.. Especially when you have not given them a reason to think what they do. They just assume things that aren't true. I won't say that I've never done that, but I've definitely scaled back. I don't make snap decisions about people because of one thing that has happened. I like to look at everything, take it all into consideration rather than just POOF decided they're evil. How is that fair to a person? Not everyone is bad, or horrible, or out to get you or anyone else. I understand the need to be protective, but to hate someone because of a situation you don't completely understand? No. Nothing about that screams "right" to me.
Although.. I am in a wonderful place, work-wise, personal-life wise, everything else. For the most part at least. I just hate having to drive 4 hours to be somewhere I really want to be. To see someone that i want to see. But, one thing that made me really smile, was hearing how much I'm wanted to be with. It's an awesome feeling, and even better that it's a mutual feeling too. That's probably the best part. I don't feel like I should be feeling something I don't just to make someone else happy. Not to say that I wasn't completely, but that it's so much easier to be happy now than before. I feel much more like I'm not pretending.. or trying to hard to be happy.. just because I know that me being there makes someone else happy. Now, it's both ways. I'm happy, he's happy, and it's because we're there together and we make each other feel that way. Kind of a hard thing to explain, but I know what I'm trying to say.
Although.. I am in a wonderful place, work-wise, personal-life wise, everything else. For the most part at least. I just hate having to drive 4 hours to be somewhere I really want to be. To see someone that i want to see. But, one thing that made me really smile, was hearing how much I'm wanted to be with. It's an awesome feeling, and even better that it's a mutual feeling too. That's probably the best part. I don't feel like I should be feeling something I don't just to make someone else happy. Not to say that I wasn't completely, but that it's so much easier to be happy now than before. I feel much more like I'm not pretending.. or trying to hard to be happy.. just because I know that me being there makes someone else happy. Now, it's both ways. I'm happy, he's happy, and it's because we're there together and we make each other feel that way. Kind of a hard thing to explain, but I know what I'm trying to say.