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So, update since Feb, I moved to NC. I started an internship, got an apt, had a job (which wasn't working w/my internship schedule), and now i'm looking for a full-time job, was eating really healthy, went home - ate a ton of crap and gained about 5 lbs, came back and decided i needed desperately to eat healthy and start a little bit of exercising.. yay for FitTv! So, after moving and doing well, then going home and hitting a huge slump, i am back to what I was doing before I went home. Thus: ticker time!
I will make it this time. No matter how long it takes. I have a pair of shorts that are pretty short, and i want to feel completely comfortable wearing them. I think that'll happen in 10 lbs. I might go home in June, but that's probably not going to happen because of me not having the money to, and hopefully having a full-time job by then. So, next time I'll probably go home is September. Maybe.. So, I can do this this time. I really don't see why I could fail this time. I live in such a health-conscious city, where I always see people running on sidewalks at any time of the day, I work for a baseball team where I always want to look good and see guys who are in good athletic shape all the time. I just wish I knew more people around to go kick a soccer ball with or play catch or (once I get new ones) go rollerblading, or (if I had one) go biking.. anything outdoors.
I know things are different this time around in the fact that I drink more water than I have ever drank before, I make sure when I go grocery shopping that I'm checking labels, getting fruits and vegetables, not a ton of processed foods, I haven't eatten out here since the week I moved here, I make sure to do at least a few exercises every day (including some belly dancing!), and eating only until I've taken away the hunger - not until I feel "ful." I did that far too much when I was at home. Oh, and no more late-night eating.. although I did that last night because I was so hungry.. I had breakfast at 10 am, lunch at about 3pm, dinner at about 6pm, and then I went grocery shopping and stayed up doing dishes and photos and was awake till 3 am, so I ended up eating at about 12:30. It took away the hunger, and I was good till I got up this morning when I had ceral and skim milk :)
I see nothing but success for myself. I know how it all works, but I'm not going to keep an eagle-eye on calories, fat grams, or anything like that. I'm going to monitor how much I eat so that I don't over-eat time and time again, I'm going to do some exercises to start to get myself moving more, and I'm going to keep an eye on the prize. Since I'm interning with a baseball team, people always see me take photos around during games. I know I can still merge into the background, but I'm visible.. and as my career gets going, I'm either going to fade more into the background or become more visible. Either way, if I'm taking photos of sports, I feel like I should be back to my athletic self.
This blog is now going to be another source of inspiration, a place I can go and put everything in.. I have a photo blog, so why not turn this into whatever I want? I can just imagine what it's going to feel like going shopping after 25 lbs to get new clothes because none of mine will fit. I don't know how long it will take, and I know the last 5-10 could take 3 months. But it'll happen. I have always loved being outside and active, and I can't believe how sedetary I have become off and on in the last few years. Ridiculous! That's gotta change. I have a dream (for some crazy reason) of running a marathon or mini-marathon or something like that. I don't really have a time frame of when I want to, but I just know I want to.
I think at this point of my life - meaning being graduated from school, trying to work and be an "adut" in that respect - I am finally ready to drop this extra 25lbs. There is nothing stopping me, no bad influences, no one to go out to eat with (that also means no one to go running or dancing with), no one but myself to make the decisions. And honestly, being able to see all these shows about people losing weigh.. biggest loser and such.. help soo much. Because, if they can do it, what's my excuse not too? Hmm... guess this means I'll have to get a scale at some point too.
I'm also kind of seeing this as a chance to compete with my sister.. I know she's trying to lose a bunch of weight too.. and I don't know when I'll see her again.. so, If I drop a bunch without telling anyone and then just show up whenever I do, like how I'm going to look.. it'll be pretty fun. Although 25lbs off a lot of people isn't that noticable, I'm only 5'1. I think 5 lbs off me is noticable. lol This will be an interesting experiment to say the least. I'm ok with it all coming off really slowly too. Because if it does that, then it's more likely that I won't put it back on, which is even better. I want to change my habits now and change my life now so that I can be who I want to be inside and out. I know this won't be an easy journey- it never has been, but I have all the knowledge, and all the tools, plus an entire TV channel decided to health and fitness. I already can feel a change in myself since being back from home/dc/baltimore. And that's only been a week.
I'm already proud of myself. I feel like I've already changed some of my thoughts, processes, and habits. I'm excited for not only the beginning of this, but the middle, the end, and everything in between. I know I can do this, there is NO reason but intern excuses for me not to finish what I'm starting.
I will make it this time. No matter how long it takes. I have a pair of shorts that are pretty short, and i want to feel completely comfortable wearing them. I think that'll happen in 10 lbs. I might go home in June, but that's probably not going to happen because of me not having the money to, and hopefully having a full-time job by then. So, next time I'll probably go home is September. Maybe.. So, I can do this this time. I really don't see why I could fail this time. I live in such a health-conscious city, where I always see people running on sidewalks at any time of the day, I work for a baseball team where I always want to look good and see guys who are in good athletic shape all the time. I just wish I knew more people around to go kick a soccer ball with or play catch or (once I get new ones) go rollerblading, or (if I had one) go biking.. anything outdoors.
I know things are different this time around in the fact that I drink more water than I have ever drank before, I make sure when I go grocery shopping that I'm checking labels, getting fruits and vegetables, not a ton of processed foods, I haven't eatten out here since the week I moved here, I make sure to do at least a few exercises every day (including some belly dancing!), and eating only until I've taken away the hunger - not until I feel "ful." I did that far too much when I was at home. Oh, and no more late-night eating.. although I did that last night because I was so hungry.. I had breakfast at 10 am, lunch at about 3pm, dinner at about 6pm, and then I went grocery shopping and stayed up doing dishes and photos and was awake till 3 am, so I ended up eating at about 12:30. It took away the hunger, and I was good till I got up this morning when I had ceral and skim milk :)
I see nothing but success for myself. I know how it all works, but I'm not going to keep an eagle-eye on calories, fat grams, or anything like that. I'm going to monitor how much I eat so that I don't over-eat time and time again, I'm going to do some exercises to start to get myself moving more, and I'm going to keep an eye on the prize. Since I'm interning with a baseball team, people always see me take photos around during games. I know I can still merge into the background, but I'm visible.. and as my career gets going, I'm either going to fade more into the background or become more visible. Either way, if I'm taking photos of sports, I feel like I should be back to my athletic self.
This blog is now going to be another source of inspiration, a place I can go and put everything in.. I have a photo blog, so why not turn this into whatever I want? I can just imagine what it's going to feel like going shopping after 25 lbs to get new clothes because none of mine will fit. I don't know how long it will take, and I know the last 5-10 could take 3 months. But it'll happen. I have always loved being outside and active, and I can't believe how sedetary I have become off and on in the last few years. Ridiculous! That's gotta change. I have a dream (for some crazy reason) of running a marathon or mini-marathon or something like that. I don't really have a time frame of when I want to, but I just know I want to.
I think at this point of my life - meaning being graduated from school, trying to work and be an "adut" in that respect - I am finally ready to drop this extra 25lbs. There is nothing stopping me, no bad influences, no one to go out to eat with (that also means no one to go running or dancing with), no one but myself to make the decisions. And honestly, being able to see all these shows about people losing weigh.. biggest loser and such.. help soo much. Because, if they can do it, what's my excuse not too? Hmm... guess this means I'll have to get a scale at some point too.
I'm also kind of seeing this as a chance to compete with my sister.. I know she's trying to lose a bunch of weight too.. and I don't know when I'll see her again.. so, If I drop a bunch without telling anyone and then just show up whenever I do, like how I'm going to look.. it'll be pretty fun. Although 25lbs off a lot of people isn't that noticable, I'm only 5'1. I think 5 lbs off me is noticable. lol This will be an interesting experiment to say the least. I'm ok with it all coming off really slowly too. Because if it does that, then it's more likely that I won't put it back on, which is even better. I want to change my habits now and change my life now so that I can be who I want to be inside and out. I know this won't be an easy journey- it never has been, but I have all the knowledge, and all the tools, plus an entire TV channel decided to health and fitness. I already can feel a change in myself since being back from home/dc/baltimore. And that's only been a week.
I'm already proud of myself. I feel like I've already changed some of my thoughts, processes, and habits. I'm excited for not only the beginning of this, but the middle, the end, and everything in between. I know I can do this, there is NO reason but intern excuses for me not to finish what I'm starting.