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[cristalina]

i laughed hard at myself.
i realize that if you cant laugh amidst the sadness,
well then what kind of life is worth living.
im sure some people thought i was going to unleash my fury.
i almost did.
i almost did but never had any intentions.
it sounded great in theory, but i realized it was all out of emotion.
yes. i am a cancer.
i have to wait for things to filter through my emotions.
otherwise, well i can be emotional.
the more i thought about it, the more i didnt care.
why?
because the one opinion of this individual didnt mean anything to me.
it shouldnt have affected me.
but it did.
it took me back to things i had stored away.
far far away from any harm it could do me now.
but it brought back unwanted feelings.
i had to let it go.
i dont even care anymore.
i have more love than i could ever hope for and thats all that matters.
with love comes love and i know i am better off than that.
i could only hope that some maturity will creep up on him one day and hell realize how this would have helped him long ago.
but thats his worries.
mine.
well i have none.