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so today was a great day. jason emailed me and his words lifted my already high spirits. i have just been feeling real great lately, which is awesome because i still have my moments of weakness. my moments where i dont care to try and things are fuzzy. but acknowledging what im going through helps.
today i had a presentation in yoga and mine was on how to use yoga moves and breathing techniques to help fight depression. i at first didnt want to add any part of me into the presentation, but rather handed everyone booklets on the info i found because i knew it would be a helpful tool for any of them that feel it or knows someone that is going through it. in the end i ended up telling them my story. or part of it. i let them know that sometimes it helps to acknowledge that you are in a depression as a means of getting out. by acknowleding it as opposed to letting it take over you, you can make a change. change your thoughts. your attitude. your mood. i felt real great after giving my speech and lindy, the other girl doing this topic added her own story and i really felt like maybe in talking about it, it helps someone else. so i felt good.
i also had a screenplay due in my class which was five pages long. it was supposed to be 3 but by the time i formatted it, it turned out longer than expected. i was worried i would get graded harshly for not following the instructions but i really couldnt condense it any more. ethan sat with our group and he really seemed to like it. i was happy. and billy, whom i met with yesterday, said i could use his camera for my projects i want to work on.
i am so exstatic i told him about my situation. i really think it helped us all out. i didnt think he understood me as a person because he had no background. so i told him about my hair and how that is a large part as to why i dont like being in front of the camera but how i did love helping out with the show and i am in no way trying to get out of it. he told me i was gorgeous. drop dead gorgeous. like the kind you notice in a crowded room or across a ways. he said i have a certain style about me and thats why he picked me. i felt assured and i took his words for what they were worth. i need to start loving myself more. loving every little thing about me. because thats all i can be. i never realized how by not caring for myself or thinking i was pretty, i am hurting myself. i never saw that connection. but if i keep telling myself i am ugly, or feeling like i am, then that does nothing good for my spirits. not that im going to ever get a over inflated head, but i need to not think i am hideous.
so the show is this weekend. i am stoked. well kind of. nervous really. i havent seen but two of the pictures and one i thought i looked funny and the other one i was turned away so i liked it. haha. but im excited for david and john and all of them. its awesome to see your achomplishments. or to feel like you have accomplished something. like your first art exhibit! wow.
today im excited to go home and burn cd's. i got so excited about my brother learning to skateboard that on impulse, i subscribed him to THRASHER magazine. hell be stoked. then he can get tips on tricks and moves since i cant be there personally to assist. he's awesome.
my mom is also sending me money which im stoked about. i do need to go to the doctor and do all that good stuff before i have no more insurance. speaking of that...i need to call.
namaste
today i had a presentation in yoga and mine was on how to use yoga moves and breathing techniques to help fight depression. i at first didnt want to add any part of me into the presentation, but rather handed everyone booklets on the info i found because i knew it would be a helpful tool for any of them that feel it or knows someone that is going through it. in the end i ended up telling them my story. or part of it. i let them know that sometimes it helps to acknowledge that you are in a depression as a means of getting out. by acknowleding it as opposed to letting it take over you, you can make a change. change your thoughts. your attitude. your mood. i felt real great after giving my speech and lindy, the other girl doing this topic added her own story and i really felt like maybe in talking about it, it helps someone else. so i felt good.
i also had a screenplay due in my class which was five pages long. it was supposed to be 3 but by the time i formatted it, it turned out longer than expected. i was worried i would get graded harshly for not following the instructions but i really couldnt condense it any more. ethan sat with our group and he really seemed to like it. i was happy. and billy, whom i met with yesterday, said i could use his camera for my projects i want to work on.
i am so exstatic i told him about my situation. i really think it helped us all out. i didnt think he understood me as a person because he had no background. so i told him about my hair and how that is a large part as to why i dont like being in front of the camera but how i did love helping out with the show and i am in no way trying to get out of it. he told me i was gorgeous. drop dead gorgeous. like the kind you notice in a crowded room or across a ways. he said i have a certain style about me and thats why he picked me. i felt assured and i took his words for what they were worth. i need to start loving myself more. loving every little thing about me. because thats all i can be. i never realized how by not caring for myself or thinking i was pretty, i am hurting myself. i never saw that connection. but if i keep telling myself i am ugly, or feeling like i am, then that does nothing good for my spirits. not that im going to ever get a over inflated head, but i need to not think i am hideous.
so the show is this weekend. i am stoked. well kind of. nervous really. i havent seen but two of the pictures and one i thought i looked funny and the other one i was turned away so i liked it. haha. but im excited for david and john and all of them. its awesome to see your achomplishments. or to feel like you have accomplished something. like your first art exhibit! wow.
today im excited to go home and burn cd's. i got so excited about my brother learning to skateboard that on impulse, i subscribed him to THRASHER magazine. hell be stoked. then he can get tips on tricks and moves since i cant be there personally to assist. he's awesome.
my mom is also sending me money which im stoked about. i do need to go to the doctor and do all that good stuff before i have no more insurance. speaking of that...i need to call.
namaste