Ravishing, outstounding; I'm not ready!
Today was very interesting.
Firstly: Work was extremely stressful. But I kept talking to God and telling him that if he would only get me through today that I would be SO grateful. Because sometimes, I really want to kill myself. Well not really really, but you know.
Secondly: Hung out with Shawna and her baby and Ashley and Traci, and that went well. They took pictures of Madison while I stared at her and thought to myself 'wow, they really do come from God.'
Thirdly: Went to my parents, grabbed some stuff that I left there. Made eye contact with my mom, Ha, and she smiled back. Oh God, if I died today, and you saved my family, I would die a happy person.
Fourthly: I was compelled and honored by what Shawna said to me in the drive home back to my place. She said, one day when she and her boyfriend Byron would move out her folks house, she would love if I came to live with them. It might sound weird, but weve been friends for years. And I think that she is the most splended person I know. She has such a rich heart.
Fifthly: I am in love with her baby.
Sixly: My ex messaged me on msn. He said, 'Hey, Im so sorry, please talk to me.' Thank God I wasnt home because I would have exploded! I am still so in love with him. And I can't talk to him because that would give me hope. I need to fall out of love with him, its the only way.
And that was my day. Yes, that was it.
And Lord at the end of it, I know there is none like you, and you want me more than I could ever imagine me wanting you, and for that I love you.
"Fear thou not, for I Am with thee." Isaiah 41:10
Firstly: Work was extremely stressful. But I kept talking to God and telling him that if he would only get me through today that I would be SO grateful. Because sometimes, I really want to kill myself. Well not really really, but you know.
Secondly: Hung out with Shawna and her baby and Ashley and Traci, and that went well. They took pictures of Madison while I stared at her and thought to myself 'wow, they really do come from God.'
Thirdly: Went to my parents, grabbed some stuff that I left there. Made eye contact with my mom, Ha, and she smiled back. Oh God, if I died today, and you saved my family, I would die a happy person.
Fourthly: I was compelled and honored by what Shawna said to me in the drive home back to my place. She said, one day when she and her boyfriend Byron would move out her folks house, she would love if I came to live with them. It might sound weird, but weve been friends for years. And I think that she is the most splended person I know. She has such a rich heart.
Fifthly: I am in love with her baby.
Sixly: My ex messaged me on msn. He said, 'Hey, Im so sorry, please talk to me.' Thank God I wasnt home because I would have exploded! I am still so in love with him. And I can't talk to him because that would give me hope. I need to fall out of love with him, its the only way.
And that was my day. Yes, that was it.
And Lord at the end of it, I know there is none like you, and you want me more than I could ever imagine me wanting you, and for that I love you.
"Fear thou not, for I Am with thee." Isaiah 41:10