I took Lortab. oh well!
I forgot to LJ cut.
I remember a time when i was in my early teens, and my family made a trip up to Cincinnati, OH. (to visit my grandparents & such)... I expected to have fun and enjoy myself, just like any other time I come to the their house. but this particular time turned out different. See, we had a cat... an old family cat, thats been with us a couple billion years. I loved this kitty to death... god, it was such a sweet little thing. By then, she was fairly old, especially for a cat. One afternoon, the whole entire family crammed into this huge white van, my grandparents used to own. Driving along... lalalala... it never occured to me, 'why would the cat be with us in the car? she's never been with us anywhere b4. hmm. weird'. Then ... we parked infront of a Vet. Clinic. Me, Nonny, Gigi (my aunt) walked in there... -I had a fairly good idea of what was going on now... and I didnt like it at all. I began to cry.... the kind of crying where tears dont surface and something tugs at your heart. Beebs was her name, she had her leash on... she made 'figure eights' in between my legs while in the waiting area. Nonny came up to me and said something like, 'well, they need a witness in the room while it happens... can you do it sam? i dont think i can.'... I said sure... thinking I'll tough it out, no one has to see me get emotional about this. Me and Beebs head into the room. It felt like the room engulfed us... it seemed so small. A metal, rectangular table stood directly in the middle. Two women, with white lab coats on tell me to pick my cat up and place her on top of the table. I do so. Beebs doesnt know whats going on... she seems happy. I can feel the first tear, of many, form. She lays down... and one of the women pulls out a needle... injects 'a peaceful death' into my precious little bundle of joy.... into what made visit's to the grandparents house worthwild. Beebs scrambles a bit... jerks ... twitches... then nothing. limp and never going to breathe again. I just stand there and watch all of this go by... I had no say... she was sick and I guess it was for her own good. Have a better time in Cat Heaven, i guess. I left the room... Nonny came and led me back to the van... we drove away... I'm not even sure what happened to the body. I've never seen anything die before... well, in real life. I wasnt myself for the next few days... I just kept thinking of her... I missed her sooo much. Yeah, I know, she's just a cat.... get over it.... well obviously, you didnt have a cat like her! she was the best damn kitty ever.... Time has passed... and i'm here at the very same house... I sit outside, expecting her to run up and play..... she never comes.