update
Dad's still in ICU but improving, I've been camped in the icu ward all week. The scariest thing is the doctors still haven't been able to identify what's happening. At first it seem to be pneumonia and congestive heart failure but in a days time his lungs filled completely and he's been in ICU since. At least he is improving, I have higher hopes of him making it than at the beginning of the week.
In addition to finding out my dad was in ICU when I came home from Friday nights party, my door had been kicked in and only one item seems to be taken, I know who has done this and it hurts.
I miss my love but see no chance of making it work any longer, and now when I need that person at my side the worst it's over. It's hard to admit that after loving someone with all your heart for four years that it just isn't going to work, it's hard to even get out of bed, much less move forward. But I've had to put all that hurt aside to be there when my father comes to. I'll grieve later.
Thank you to all my friends helping pull me through this, I've never felt so miserable. Looks like time for a happy pill and some rest before going back to the ICU.
BTW the tile floor of the ICU make a horrible bed.
In addition to finding out my dad was in ICU when I came home from Friday nights party, my door had been kicked in and only one item seems to be taken, I know who has done this and it hurts.
I miss my love but see no chance of making it work any longer, and now when I need that person at my side the worst it's over. It's hard to admit that after loving someone with all your heart for four years that it just isn't going to work, it's hard to even get out of bed, much less move forward. But I've had to put all that hurt aside to be there when my father comes to. I'll grieve later.
Thank you to all my friends helping pull me through this, I've never felt so miserable. Looks like time for a happy pill and some rest before going back to the ICU.
BTW the tile floor of the ICU make a horrible bed.