Why now?
You know what sucks....when you find out someone that you idolize is an idiot. Damn it, I looked up to this person. I knew that they were in no means perfect but that is what made me love them so much. I will never be able to look at them the same way. I wish I could stop them from doing this, but it is their decision. I always knew that they did this, but i pretended not to know it. To me, they were always going to stay perfect....the one i could look up to and aspire to be like. It sucks realizing that you have to find someone new. Oh well, to this person, I am just one friend among many, many friends. Losing the respect of one will not be a big deal, they probably won't even notice. I hate this....
On another topic, have you ever had a plan for your life that you thought was going to work out so well and then something or usually someone comes into your life and messes with that plan? In general, it seems that messing is good, but right now I just feel like the messing is distracting and upsetting. I'm just so confused right now. I just wanted to go to college and start over, but it appears like that won't happen.
It's a damn shame that just looking at a picture of us or hearing your voice can bring such a huge smile to my face.
On another topic, have you ever had a plan for your life that you thought was going to work out so well and then something or usually someone comes into your life and messes with that plan? In general, it seems that messing is good, but right now I just feel like the messing is distracting and upsetting. I'm just so confused right now. I just wanted to go to college and start over, but it appears like that won't happen.
It's a damn shame that just looking at a picture of us or hearing your voice can bring such a huge smile to my face.