Some Dream Schemes for ya Winter beams:
January 5, 2011
I am traveling and arriving places that I once was (supposedly). First I arrive in the middle of a dinner party hosted by friends. I have bags with me of my things. My friends are emily, elly and some other girls plus their boyfriends. I sit down to eat with them in a dining room (which is actually the dining room in the house my parents used to live in that belonged to my grandparents before they moved to tennessee... brown shag rug, low hanging crazy light). Apparently we all go to university and are in the same class. A drama class where we study and perform plays. I had been absent for several days (the reason of which I have no idea) and so all the girls were going over the play with me. Letting me read the part of Goetha, one of the main characters.
In the play, it runs around through time, half of which is medieval and the other half which is set in the early 90's in the projects of chicago. The main character Goetha is a black woman whose past life as a queen comes to haunt her in the ghetto, i guess. This is the character they let me read.
The next day I arrive to class only to discover that I'd been gone much longer than two days and that the teacher is furious about it. "I should flunk you!" she says. "I've given your part to someone else!" I ask her if I can pose as an extra at least or be somebody's understudy but she stutters out a shocked 'no' and tells me to take a seat and to enjoy their reenactment of the play without me in it.
After everyone finishes the read-through, we all make our way to the auditorium in a single line. The teacher makes me stand at the very back of the line and walks with me, making it known how disappointed she is in me. She tells me that tonight is the first night of the production and that she hopes I don't try and sabotage anything. I am so confused at this point. Just moments ago, this class was going through a read-through (not that entirely convincing) and now they're getting their costumes on, putting the set up and preparing to perform this thing in front of a full house. I get to sit in the wings and watch everything. 'The wings' is a small room the size of a square. Ceiling the same length as the walls and so on.
I am in this room with three or four other people when the play begins. It starts in the medieval period. I decide to go downstairs to the green room to use the bathroom. The bathroom is decorated like a queen's would be. Plush red cushions line the walls, gems have been super-glued to mirrors, chandeliers hang low above sinks. I get teary-eyed when i think of all the hard work my class had endured without me to make this all happen. Spending their off hours, pinning tin to the ceilings...
As I'm checking out the place, a boy that had been in the wings with me races down and tells me that I gotta get back upstairs. Something great's about to happen and they need my help. So I race up with him, we run into the wings, he shuts the door. Did I mention that all the walls, ceilings, floor was all made of glass? Well, it was. So we're in this glass box, and I'm watching a scene on stage of Goetha and a man, sitting in the center of a plywood painted ghetto as Goetha is sobbing uncontrollably. No sooner do I see this when the box we're in SHOOTS UP into the air, through the open windows in the ceiling of the auditorium and into the night sky!!! It's weird because when this happens, there is not a sound. Not from the fast movement and not from either one of us tucked away inside. The box goes and goes until zoooop, it stops in a beautiful spot where we're surrounded by stars pretending to be diamonds. None of us can speak, we're so in awe.
Soon though, I hear a sound and turn to see two of the girls in the Wings kissing each other. Fully making out. The boy looks at me with wild eyes and i shake my head. Everything is lovely up here but it definitely doesn't make me want to smooch some random stranger with a buzz cut.
I am traveling and arriving places that I once was (supposedly). First I arrive in the middle of a dinner party hosted by friends. I have bags with me of my things. My friends are emily, elly and some other girls plus their boyfriends. I sit down to eat with them in a dining room (which is actually the dining room in the house my parents used to live in that belonged to my grandparents before they moved to tennessee... brown shag rug, low hanging crazy light). Apparently we all go to university and are in the same class. A drama class where we study and perform plays. I had been absent for several days (the reason of which I have no idea) and so all the girls were going over the play with me. Letting me read the part of Goetha, one of the main characters.
In the play, it runs around through time, half of which is medieval and the other half which is set in the early 90's in the projects of chicago. The main character Goetha is a black woman whose past life as a queen comes to haunt her in the ghetto, i guess. This is the character they let me read.
The next day I arrive to class only to discover that I'd been gone much longer than two days and that the teacher is furious about it. "I should flunk you!" she says. "I've given your part to someone else!" I ask her if I can pose as an extra at least or be somebody's understudy but she stutters out a shocked 'no' and tells me to take a seat and to enjoy their reenactment of the play without me in it.
After everyone finishes the read-through, we all make our way to the auditorium in a single line. The teacher makes me stand at the very back of the line and walks with me, making it known how disappointed she is in me. She tells me that tonight is the first night of the production and that she hopes I don't try and sabotage anything. I am so confused at this point. Just moments ago, this class was going through a read-through (not that entirely convincing) and now they're getting their costumes on, putting the set up and preparing to perform this thing in front of a full house. I get to sit in the wings and watch everything. 'The wings' is a small room the size of a square. Ceiling the same length as the walls and so on.
I am in this room with three or four other people when the play begins. It starts in the medieval period. I decide to go downstairs to the green room to use the bathroom. The bathroom is decorated like a queen's would be. Plush red cushions line the walls, gems have been super-glued to mirrors, chandeliers hang low above sinks. I get teary-eyed when i think of all the hard work my class had endured without me to make this all happen. Spending their off hours, pinning tin to the ceilings...
As I'm checking out the place, a boy that had been in the wings with me races down and tells me that I gotta get back upstairs. Something great's about to happen and they need my help. So I race up with him, we run into the wings, he shuts the door. Did I mention that all the walls, ceilings, floor was all made of glass? Well, it was. So we're in this glass box, and I'm watching a scene on stage of Goetha and a man, sitting in the center of a plywood painted ghetto as Goetha is sobbing uncontrollably. No sooner do I see this when the box we're in SHOOTS UP into the air, through the open windows in the ceiling of the auditorium and into the night sky!!! It's weird because when this happens, there is not a sound. Not from the fast movement and not from either one of us tucked away inside. The box goes and goes until zoooop, it stops in a beautiful spot where we're surrounded by stars pretending to be diamonds. None of us can speak, we're so in awe.
Soon though, I hear a sound and turn to see two of the girls in the Wings kissing each other. Fully making out. The boy looks at me with wild eyes and i shake my head. Everything is lovely up here but it definitely doesn't make me want to smooch some random stranger with a buzz cut.