Just Show Me.
I'm sitting in this crowded resturant, sounds echoing all around me as I'm attempting to throw everything in one direction. Sweat from each cup on every table leaving rings of everlasting wet-ness because of the humidity of this toasty day. I close my eyes and soak in the feel of the fan that is going full blast, leaving me with a chill that tingles me from the base of my spine up to mid-shoulder...giving me goosebumps across the rest of my body, forcing me to wiggle uncontrolably in my seat..this only lasts for a few seconds though...enough to make the people around me look at me in a strange manner...
All the conversations around me blend into one causing the massive effect of thunderous chatter, breaking my ear drums into two...I try to focus on one conversation...it has the feeling of supurb invasion of privacy because the person or people do not know that I'm looking to sneak in on their intimate thoughts...
And it's so funny how small this world seems to be when you run into more than one person that you know each day, or seeing a friendly face and think that I've known them some time before because of my dreams. Dreams these days are more and more un-real feeling because of the places that I visit. I see a face, I feel a feeling, I smell a smell...And I feel like I'm home. I have too many re-occuring dreams that mean nothing to me as of yet.
They scare me.
It scares me.
I scare me.
I've been thinking far too much lately about the weirdest things, things I wasn't that concerned with before, or anymore...It's funny how I'll talk to someone and things that we've talked about, or things I'm curious about will just show themselves all over the place. For example, a few days ago I was asking my mum about Coke, Pepsi, Dr. Pepper and their effects on indigestion and heartburn...and then there is this show that comes on last night talking all about it and I just sat there in awe because this isn't the first time it's happened. I don't think I'm psychic or anything...I'm far from that. If I were, I would've seen a lot of things coming and been prepared for it. Mmhmm.
Yap yap yap.
Loves to you all.
♥