change
why do we change for other people? do we do it for them? for ourselves? or maybe both? it depends on how much they mean to you too, I guess. but it also depends on how much you value yourself. I've always believed that you can't love another person until you love yourself. single or not, it's extremely important to be confident in who you are even if you do have flaws. this is why I dislike it when people change for other people because they don't feel good enough about themselves. just because other people say you need to change doesn't mean you actually have to or should have to. it especially sucks when people make you feel guilty about changing who you are in addition to the low self-esteem you already have. to value their opinion over yours means that you have accepted that you're wrong and they're right, and that's not always the case. therefore, I think you shouldn't be around people like that. why surround yourself with people who judge the world by their own standards instead of what's actually right? maybe it's because I'm the type of person to run away from her problems, but if something is bringing you down, I think it's logical to let it go. then again, I'm also afraid of change. I don't feel that I should have to change myself for another person unless I feel it will benefit me. if it compromises who I am, the people I hang out with, my priorities, my family, or anything that I hold dear, then fuck it. I've got too much to worry about in my life right now and I don't need people telling me how to run my life. I'm not gonna change the person I've been for 19, almost 20 years just because I feel like shit when people can't respect or accept me.
like I said, fuck it. fuck that shit.
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so that blog I wrote...I'm not sure I meant every word...
I really really really really really don't know what to do...
like I said, fuck it. fuck that shit.
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so that blog I wrote...I'm not sure I meant every word...
I really really really really really don't know what to do...