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so tomorrow night is the concert i have been dreading / excited for since i first found out i was gonna be doing a solo piece back in... december? i dont remember. i am nervous as hell, cause i dont know how im gonna react once im onstage with everyone in the audience. its a comfort thing, and i have played this piece so many times i can do it with my eyes closed, but with nerves thrown in, everything goes out of whack. and i dont do well performing under pressure, at least not with the trumpet. but i have a feeling that everything will go well. and if i screw up, i will never ever ever be able to look capano in the eyes for mortification, so yeah. must do well.
playing soccer is a lot like playing the trumpet. i've been thinking about that while i sit in the goal not really doing much... the approach i take to trumpeting is rather similar to my approach in the goal. like, when im confident in my abilities and just go and do, the outcome is so much better and so much more exciting than when i back off and am timid. same thing goes for the amount of brain energy i put into getting myself "in the zone." when im concentrating on nothing but the music / game, i perform so much better. its when i think about what im doing that i screw up... like on the myriad of goal kicks i fuck up because i think "wow, it would suck if i kick this right at that girl and she beats my ass back to the goal." and with the trumpet, same as soccr kinda, it becomes an instinctual thing once you know the music. like, the concerto im playing. if i just let my fingers do the work without overthinking what im doing, reflex will take over and it will be flawless. but if i freak myself out thinking "oh shit, what were the fingerings again? let me read my music...." it gets all fumbled and unsure. because thats what i am, unsure. same in soccer. when i just charge at someone and take them out and clear the ball away from the goal using whatever means came most instinctually, the outcome is far better than when i consciously think about cutting down the angle or getting my hands on the ball and so forth. i guess the moral of this ramble is that sometimes, its ok to zone out and let your body take over, as long as whatever it is that you're doing is part reflex to begin with. overthinking is not good.
i got my prom dress altered today. and im on week 2 of my eating healthy diet, which is going excellently... i dont even know if i've lost weight, but i certainly feel better, which is all that really matters anyway. work is awesome, school is winding down, summer looks promising. no complaints here. =)
playing soccer is a lot like playing the trumpet. i've been thinking about that while i sit in the goal not really doing much... the approach i take to trumpeting is rather similar to my approach in the goal. like, when im confident in my abilities and just go and do, the outcome is so much better and so much more exciting than when i back off and am timid. same thing goes for the amount of brain energy i put into getting myself "in the zone." when im concentrating on nothing but the music / game, i perform so much better. its when i think about what im doing that i screw up... like on the myriad of goal kicks i fuck up because i think "wow, it would suck if i kick this right at that girl and she beats my ass back to the goal." and with the trumpet, same as soccr kinda, it becomes an instinctual thing once you know the music. like, the concerto im playing. if i just let my fingers do the work without overthinking what im doing, reflex will take over and it will be flawless. but if i freak myself out thinking "oh shit, what were the fingerings again? let me read my music...." it gets all fumbled and unsure. because thats what i am, unsure. same in soccer. when i just charge at someone and take them out and clear the ball away from the goal using whatever means came most instinctually, the outcome is far better than when i consciously think about cutting down the angle or getting my hands on the ball and so forth. i guess the moral of this ramble is that sometimes, its ok to zone out and let your body take over, as long as whatever it is that you're doing is part reflex to begin with. overthinking is not good.
i got my prom dress altered today. and im on week 2 of my eating healthy diet, which is going excellently... i dont even know if i've lost weight, but i certainly feel better, which is all that really matters anyway. work is awesome, school is winding down, summer looks promising. no complaints here. =)