What's a girl to do?????????
So if any of you remember the "guy" I had been chatting w/ and WAS going to meet(but that didn't happen). He lived about 5 hours from me at the time. I really enjoyed talking to him, and wanted to get to know him. I also had it in my head that I wanted to be w/ him, but certain things were just holding me back, plus he went and found a nice girl to date. So after all that happened we hadn't talked since november, or sometime there about.So anyways I had been on the dating sites. I deleted most of the ones that I could figure out how to delete. But I decided to get back on there, mostly because I moved and want to meet friends first, before anything else. I have talked to a few guys, through IM or email. For the most part they seem nice, just not that interesting to me. At least as far as really wanting to get to know them. Maybe more of a friend thing, which is obviously fine, but just not that into them in either way. Maybe I am searching for something else?? I don't feel comfortable enough to even date anyone right now. But I guess if I could date someone and not be physical, it would be just fine. I know that is strange, but whatever. I guess I want the attention, but not to suffer the physical stuff or be completly vunerable???Anyways. So I had been thinking about this guy since we had last talked. I was trying to just forget the whole thing. I was trying to just let it go.But I couldn't do it. I finally emailed him, just a short-hey do you want to chat? He replied that same day and we have exchanged a few messages since then. I am sad to say this but I miss him dearly. It just made things so painfully obvious when talking to these other guys that I MAY have missed out on something great.............I just kept thinking about the guy even when talking to other guys. He has so many qualities that I like in a mate. The others guys I may seem to have a few things in common w/, but it just isn't the same. He and I were on the same page on alot of things, NOT everything. He drinks, smokes pot, I do niether of these. But as far as sooo many other things we totally connected. The reason why we didn't meet was a combination of things-distance, my reluctance, my indecision, I was definetly scared to meet him, I really wanted to but didn't want to be in an uncomfortable situation. Because frankly I was NOT ready for disapointment or being fucked over or whatever. I don't really have I pooint, just rattling off again........What do you think?