on getting what one asks for
If there was a way to describe last week, the word that kept coming up was "intense". "Intense" like looking into the sun and trying to keep your eyes open because you're searching for something in the glare, and then you see it and you look away, blink, and the world looks different. Last Monday afternoon, I was in this work meeting, running C. through the paces of his first client kickoff for a customer down in Charlotte. However, the back of my head was running through to-do list items for a fantasy adventure bar crawl later in the week, and the furthest corner of my mind was worrying about a DJ set that I was scheduled to spin later that night at Ceremony. You know, the usual.
Then I got an email that was welcome, long anticipated, but, given the timing, had threatened to elevate the intensity of my week into the ranks of "overwhelming." For a moment, I thought about putting it off, letting it lie for a bit and just acting on all of this news one item at a time. But then, I also remembered that all of this: all of these changes and events and moments of anticipation -- all of this was something that I asked for and that I am getting. I should not be afraid of any of it. All of this can happen. All of this will happen. Also, my life has people in it who were willing to help; to share the burdens of running an event, to give good advice when they were needed, and give out hugs to calm a frantic mind.
I realize that I am lucky and fortunate, and part of what comes with this is taking advantage of fortune whenever it presents itself while also appreciating it for however long it is a part of your life. More to come, but I just wanted to let you all know that in the middle of all of the craziness that was last week, in the moments of lucid calm between frenzied activity, the thought that came to my head again and again was how happy that I was to have met all of you, and that we can continue to share these parts of our lives from now and into the foreseeable future.
Then I got an email that was welcome, long anticipated, but, given the timing, had threatened to elevate the intensity of my week into the ranks of "overwhelming." For a moment, I thought about putting it off, letting it lie for a bit and just acting on all of this news one item at a time. But then, I also remembered that all of this: all of these changes and events and moments of anticipation -- all of this was something that I asked for and that I am getting. I should not be afraid of any of it. All of this can happen. All of this will happen. Also, my life has people in it who were willing to help; to share the burdens of running an event, to give good advice when they were needed, and give out hugs to calm a frantic mind.
I realize that I am lucky and fortunate, and part of what comes with this is taking advantage of fortune whenever it presents itself while also appreciating it for however long it is a part of your life. More to come, but I just wanted to let you all know that in the middle of all of the craziness that was last week, in the moments of lucid calm between frenzied activity, the thought that came to my head again and again was how happy that I was to have met all of you, and that we can continue to share these parts of our lives from now and into the foreseeable future.