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Ew, okay... so upon reading that entry I've decided that my job's unhealthy. (Everyone else in the entire universe: Okay people, she's finally out of denial) Although, that said it's unlikely that I'm going to quit. But I need to... I just don't know how to do it. If I really tell her how I feel, I don't want to go back for two more weeks to spend quality time with her. Yet, what else am I going to say? And do I write a letter? 'Cause I can't tell her in person! Uhg. I hate Dairy Queen. No one go there! Their ice cream is made of evil!
Haha, just kidding.
OR AM I? D:
I really don't want to be working 5 days a week there. Which is probably what is going to be happening this summer. No friggen way.
Help!
So yeah, Creative Writing is the devil. I just can't write. Or keep my attention focussed. Or both, most likely. How can time have gone by so fast? Yet so slow at the same time?!
I painted tonight for like, 5 hours... but I didn't even get that far. Like, Christ haha. It's retarded.
I really wish there was... 4 more weeks left of Creative Writing. WHY did I let work control me? Why DO I STILL let work control me?!
Probably the best survey ever. Why aren't they all like this?
1) List 20-ish things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
1. I wish that you could stop taking words out of my mouth. It really hurts my feelings, and none of it is even true.
2. I really care for you, and I think that if things had been different our relationship would have been different.
3. Stop thinking that you need other people around you. You are an amazing person and you're seriously being overly pessimistic. Just know that I love you, and you don't need anyone else to control you.
4. I hate you so fucking much. You're fat, and ugly, and mean. I swear, you're like the over-pompous sister-in-law of Satan.
5. And you're like the skinny horrible sister of the sister-in-law.
6. I wish you didn't change. Either that, or I wish I was still ignorant to what you did to me, and all of your friends. You're horrible for that, but I still like you... or our memories together.
7. There's nothing between us, so please stop thinking that there is or was.
8. Some people just need a rest time. They're stressed out over one thing or another or whatever and it's not like we don't care about you.
9. You're such a whore. Get over yourself. Cow.
10. Stop thinking there's nothing more important than setting aside four hours a night for band practice.
11. Stop being emo, because everytime I try to talk to you, I'm not getting the person I want to talk to. I miss your happy little self, and I want to have a conversation with YOU.
12. What did I ever fucking do to you to deserve the trash you dished out? I don't even know you, yet you're talking about me and giving me dirties. I'm a fucking customer, bitch, now get me my fucking Chai tea.
13. I'm not sure what I did to you, either. Or why you felt the need to gang up on me with the rest of our "friends". This is exactly what happened to you, and now don't blame me for being confused on why you're now doing it to me. Half an hour ago we were best friends. Like, WTF.
14. I can't believe you could be so... permiscuous, like really. It's kind of sickening, and I wish you'd have more self respect than to talk about how you sucked some guy off at a party in the middle of my biology class. Believe it or not, I'd rather be listening to Mr. Cruz.
15. I QUIT! Why? Because you're a fucking bitch. You don't follow labor laws, or treat your employees more than dirt. Well, at least the ones you don't favor.
16. You, on the other hand, are the coolest boss. You rock, don't ever change.
17. Shave the moustache. Please.
18. I really wish I had gotten to know you better before you graduated.
19. I like you, a lot. And I think you might have liked me too.
20. You bug the hell out of me. And it's okay to hate you, because you're not a nice person. I'm sorry if I "disgust you", just don't look next time. Simple?
21. Stop being so dependent on one person. You're a strong person, and you're not going to die without him, no matter what you think.
22. I really like you, but why do you diminish my every chance of success?
23. Band is not my life, like it is yours. It's time you get that through your thick head. Go practice in a cave somewhere.