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this has been the most intense, stressful, restless, demanding week i have had in a long time, maybe ever given the work / notwork combo of things coming up.
and once again, i've been proven (or i've demonstrated?) that in times of extreme emotional/physical upheaval i generate very creative, effective and challenging stuff work (mostly writing). probably something worth paying attention to.
somehow between my first major bout with insomnia (MAN i sympathize with anyone who has ever experienced that, it's a special kind of hell) and all sorts of grieving, i have hit so many deadlines beyond imagination and show no signs of stopping as i crank out more strategic planning reports, foundation grant applications, master's project descriptions, manuscript sections, etc etc etc. it's a little scary how easily and effectively i can still go into that kind of mode; maybe it will never be something i unlearn (though hopefully will avoid). but i noticed how much more aware i am of my physical reactions to stress and how undesirable that is, and that's an important and awesome development in myself.
oh, and for those who read this for life updates, i effectively and non-apologetically took most of the previous three weeks to be with family (and some great friends), and it rocked. yay life.
and once again, i've been proven (or i've demonstrated?) that in times of extreme emotional/physical upheaval i generate very creative, effective and challenging stuff work (mostly writing). probably something worth paying attention to.
somehow between my first major bout with insomnia (MAN i sympathize with anyone who has ever experienced that, it's a special kind of hell) and all sorts of grieving, i have hit so many deadlines beyond imagination and show no signs of stopping as i crank out more strategic planning reports, foundation grant applications, master's project descriptions, manuscript sections, etc etc etc. it's a little scary how easily and effectively i can still go into that kind of mode; maybe it will never be something i unlearn (though hopefully will avoid). but i noticed how much more aware i am of my physical reactions to stress and how undesirable that is, and that's an important and awesome development in myself.
oh, and for those who read this for life updates, i effectively and non-apologetically took most of the previous three weeks to be with family (and some great friends), and it rocked. yay life.