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[crimsonxdark]

You know how sometimes when you go see your doctor, who's part of a larger practice, you end up being seen by a different doctor? Annoying.

Today, instead of being seen by my gynecologist, I was seen by a midwife. I'M NOT PREGNANT! WTF? lol!!!!Of course, she was uber nice, and me being me and finding all sorts of possibilities interesting, I

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[crimsonxdark]

I don't drive either! And that's what makes finding a job so difficult. Because my mother would be the one dropping me off, it has to be on her way to work and start early in the morning (if it's a weekday). I did find that Kohl's is looking for Early Merchandise Stock Assistants, or something like that... time and location are convenient; I just hope they accept my application.

Have you ever filled out an application? They make you feel like you're applying for some important executive position; they ask for references and previous employers, level of education, degree acquired... I'm applying to stock shelves! Or whatever/wherever the application is for **insert low-level employment here**. What are you supposed to put if it's [going to be] your first job? grrr.

Incidentally, it was also my first visit to a gynecologist. You'd think she'd make the effort to actually see me since I'm new to her practice... instead she was at lunch. She did pop by for a second, and said "hi"... to the midwife.

And more on midwifery... I think it would be fulfilling to be that kind of midwife (or that kind of anything) that makes women (people in general, following my previous parentheses) feel really comfortable. It's a bit hard to explain. Even though I couldn't be further from the "people person" type, I often feel that it would be fulfilling to make people's lives better in some way.

...It's part of my I Hate Humanity Because Overall I Think We're A Pretty Rotten Bunch And Sometimes I Wish We'd Just Nuke Ourselves To Death And The World/Earth Could Start Over, But At The Same Time I'm An Idealistic, Romantic, Peace&Love, Hippie Reincarnate conflict. Yeah.

[crimsonxdark]

You probably don't need to see a gynecologist. I only went (haven't had sex with guys either) because I saw a dietitian about going vegan (doing it right this time) and about the fact that I've gained 30+ pounds in a year, and she thought it was possible that the weight gain was caused by Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and thought I should see a gynecologist just to rule it out or confirm.

Btw, the midwife didn't think I had it, which was actually disappointing because it would have provided a nice guilt-free reason for my massive weight gain. grrr.

"I'm getting progressively more secluded and bad with people..."
This has been me for the past year. I'm trying to start talking to people again, 'cause frankly I'm miserable. And online (in general; I haven't used IM in a year)... grrrr. I spend SO much time online that I feel like I need to stage an intervention with myself. X(