Dec 15, 2004 17:46
I do hope he doesn't mean for me to join him in the shower. That shower has been pissed in, I don't want to get wet and there could be bears trying to eat me. One should never assume someone will join them in a shower.
The trees looked so pretty with an orange under blue sky behind them. God, I hope he doesn't ruin this. But the odds are so against me, aren't they.... Optimism. Remember optimism.
The other night I dreamed that Angelo and I were having sex in my bedroom (which happened to be up in a tower.) We heard screaming from outside so I peer out the window. Down on the ground is Katie's boyfriend laying there with strips of duct tape applied to his naked body. His penis was about a centimeter long. Katie was nowhere to be seen, but I cam only assume that she was off with Scott whom she has a new crush on- again. Angelo looked out the window too, laughed and we went back to fabulous sex. I still need to decide what this dream means. I haven't really thought about it, other than considering how gross it was. I think the duct tape may have something to do with the Red Green Movie I was watching before I went to bed, but it could symbolize something as well.
I have a reduction to do tonight. I have completely fucked myself over with skipping second hour. If I don't get that excused somehow, I won't get credit for that class and I will be that much further from my appeal process. I need to get a letter from Mrs. Morgan still. I am fucking myself over as every minute goes by. The last place I should be is here, but this is the only place I want to be because Angelo is here.