One-shot: Sweetheart
Author's note February 2011: This was written in May 2008. I haven't really changed anything and everything is pretty much the same as when I first posted it back then. Don't expect any sort of quality when it comes to the writing, grammar or the language used.
Title: Sweetheart
Author: phoenix_zeal
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I do not make any profit from this.
Summary: He's innocent and pure in his love but there are things inside of him that he can't control... things that will tear his life apart and hurt the one he loves most.
”How could this happen?” Yuichi asked as he looked through the little window in the door.
“Maybe all the pressure broke him”, Tatsuya suggested.
“But he’s so sweet, he’d never do something like this…” Koki said with tears in his eyes.
“Just like he never kept any secrets to us”, Junno said bitterly and the other three looked at him in surprise. “They hid it from us… Why would they do that?”
“Junno, you know that it probably wasn’t easy for them”, Yuichi said soothingly. “They probably wanted to tell us… but now isn’t the time to talk about that. It’s too late now anyway…”
The four band mates helplessly looked through the window, watching their former band mate and friend, Kamenashi Kazuya, who sat in the bare room on a small bed, staring at the wall.
***
“Kazu, there’s something I want to tell you”, Jin looked extremely nervous and he kept twirling around the pinky ring he had on his finger.
Kazuya gave him a sweet smile and inched closer to him on the couch, they were alone in the dressing room.
“What is it Jin? You know you can tell me anything.”
“Uh”, Jin looked at Kazuya’s face that was in such close proximity to his and he gulped. “I… IthinkI’minlovewithyou”, he blurted out quickly.
Kazuya blinked and frowned a bit before his face shone up with a bright smile.
“Really?” he said excitedly and Jin nodded. “I’m in love with you too.”
Jin blinked dazedly and stared at Kazuya in shock. Kazuya smiled and pulled Jin into an embrace to which, after a second, Jin responded, wrapping his arms around the younger boy’s waist.
“I’m really happy”, Jin whispered into Kazuya’s ear.
“Me too”, Kazuya sighed happily, “me too.”
***
Kazuya cursed the mattresses that covered the wall underneath them. He wanted to bang his head bloody but all his head met was softness. Everything was too soft, he didn’t deserve it. He clawed on the mattresses and sobbed helplessly.
“Why?” he sniffled. “Why did I do it?”
***
“I think we should keep it a secret”, Kazuya said and looked up at a frowning Jin.
“Why should we?” Jin asked. “Don’t you trust them?”
“Of course I trust them but I don’t know how they’d react…”
Jin wrapped his arms around the younger boy’s waist and rested his forehead against his, sighing softly.
“If you don’t think we should tell them, then we won’t.”
“Thank you Jin”, Kazuya said and leaned up to bring their lips together in a sweet and innocent kiss.
***
Kazuya giggled uncontrollably, he just couldn’t stop. He saw blood dripping down the walls and it amused him to no end. The blood coloured everything around him in red and he spun around and around until he saw a familiar face among the blood. He shivered and sank to his knees, crying but still giggling.
“Never again… never again.”
***
With the drama and all of the promotions he had to do, Kazuya had become quite exhausted. Jin was worried about how thin the younger boy had become so he decided to cook for him.
Jin cursed as he accidentally cut his hand and he was about to bring his hand to his mouth when Kazuya grabbed his wrist.
Kazuya smirked as he licked Jin's bleeding hand and Jin shivered. He was sure that he saw something evil in the usually so sweet brown eyes of his boyfriend. But when he looked again it was gone and Jin thought that it was probably just his imagination.
“You have to be careful Jin”, Kazuya said with concern.
“Yeah, I’m sorry”, Jin said and Kazuya laughed.
“You don’t have to apologise, you idiot.”
***
Kazuya was forced into a straightjacket before he could go to the visiting room where his former band mates waited for him.
“Hey Kame”, Koki said softly but Kazuya just stared at him with expressionless eyes as he sat down, facing them.
“How are you doing?” Junno asked and Kazuya’s lips formed a twisted smile.
“How do you think I’m doing?” he asked and giggled maniacally, a sound that made the four others’ blood freeze.
“Uh… are you treated well?” Yuichi asked and Kazuya stopped giggling and looked at him sadly.
“I’m not here most of the time”, Kazuya said and his eyes were completely clear. “They lock me up inside.”
“Who does?” Tatsuya asked frowning.
“The voices… everything in there is covered in blood.”
Kazuya cried and looked at them imploringly.
“Please make him go away!”
“Who do you want us to take away?” Koki asked.
“The other Kazuya.”
The others could only stare at him helplessly.
***
Kazuya writhed underneath Jin and threw his head back, moaning loudly.
“Oh Jin, harder!”
Jin complied and Kazuya felt as if he was going to break from the pleasure he was feeling. He dug his nails into Jin’s forearms almost hard enough to draw blood. The older man hissed but he didn’t complain as he thrust into Kazuya again and again.
Soon they both went over the edge and Kazuya bit down on Jin’s shoulder and felt the taste of blood on his tongue. He moaned at the wonderful taste and licked up every drop of blood before his eyes widened.
“I’m so sorry Jin!” he said terrified and scrambled away from under the other man.
“It’s okay Kazuya”, Jin said and tried to catch Kazuya in an embrace but the younger man wrapped the sheets around him and fled out of the bed.
“I’m so sorry, so sorry, so sorry”, Kazuya repeated as a mantra and sank to the floor, his body trembling.
He didn’t move away when Jin joined him on the floor and embraced him tightly.
“We’ll get through this”, Jin whispered soothingly.
***
Kazuya stared up at the ceiling but he didn’t see it, all he could see was his lover’s face.
“Jin”, he whispered with a shaky voice. “Please, please tell me that everything’s okay. Please tell me that we can get through this together too. Make it all okay again…”
Kazuya hugged his pillow and buried his face in it, staining it with his tears.
***
“Kazu, I can’t take the pressure anymore”, Jin said as they sat in Kazuya’s kitchen facing each other. “I’ve decided to leave for awhile.”
“Leave?” Kazuya said frowning. “Do you mean… leave me?”
“No! I just mean, I want to take a break and go away for awhile. A break from the entertainment industry. But I still love you Kazuya, I always will.”
“Where will you go?”
“To America to study the language”, Jin said. “I’ve already talked to Johnny about it and he said that it’s okay.”
Kazuya’s eyes widened.
“You asked him without even telling me?” he asked and tears formed in his eyes.
“I didn’t want to say anything in case it wouldn’t happen… I didn’t want to cause you unnecessary pain.”
Kazuya scoffed and his lips formed a bloodcurdling smile. Jin stiffened, it wasn’t his Kazuya anymore. He slowly got up from his chair and tried to back out of the kitchen but Kazuya was faster. He grabbed a big knife lying on the counter and jumped on Jin, sending them both to the floor.
“I’ll never let you leave me”, Kazuya said as he straddled Jin who was wincing; he’d hit his head badly in the fall and blood was forming a small puddle on the floor. “You’re mine Jin, mine!”
Kazuya raised his hand with the knife and before Jin could even blink the knife was buried in his chest.
“Kazuya”, he said and coughed up some blood before he continued weakly, “I still love you. I’ll… always love you.”
His breathing stopped and his eyes became unseeing.
***
Kazuya was supposed to meet Tatsuya for lunch. However, when he didn’t come or answer his phone, Tatsuya decided to go to Kazuya’s apartment.
There was no answer when Tatsuya rang the doorbell but he tried to open the door; it slid open easily and he stepped inside, frowning. What he saw there made him wish that he hadn’t entered.
Kazuya was straddling Jin who had a gaping hole in his chest.
Tatsuya stood frozen in shock, staring at the smirking Kazuya.
“This”, Kazuya said, indicating the heart he held in his hand, “is mine forever.”
***
Kazuya had a serene smile on his face as he looked at the man standing in front of him.
“You came for me”, he said.
“I’ll save you from him.”
Kazuya stretched his hand out to the man who took it and led him out through the wall, out into the sun.
They left the other Kazuya behind, the Kazuya that was currently grinning maniacally as he dug his nails into his own flesh.
“I love you”, Kazuya said.
“I love you too, sweetheart.”
Jin turned his head around to smile at Kazuya.
Title: Sweetheart
Author: phoenix_zeal
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I do not make any profit from this.
Summary: He's innocent and pure in his love but there are things inside of him that he can't control... things that will tear his life apart and hurt the one he loves most.
”How could this happen?” Yuichi asked as he looked through the little window in the door.
“Maybe all the pressure broke him”, Tatsuya suggested.
“But he’s so sweet, he’d never do something like this…” Koki said with tears in his eyes.
“Just like he never kept any secrets to us”, Junno said bitterly and the other three looked at him in surprise. “They hid it from us… Why would they do that?”
“Junno, you know that it probably wasn’t easy for them”, Yuichi said soothingly. “They probably wanted to tell us… but now isn’t the time to talk about that. It’s too late now anyway…”
The four band mates helplessly looked through the window, watching their former band mate and friend, Kamenashi Kazuya, who sat in the bare room on a small bed, staring at the wall.
***
“Kazu, there’s something I want to tell you”, Jin looked extremely nervous and he kept twirling around the pinky ring he had on his finger.
Kazuya gave him a sweet smile and inched closer to him on the couch, they were alone in the dressing room.
“What is it Jin? You know you can tell me anything.”
“Uh”, Jin looked at Kazuya’s face that was in such close proximity to his and he gulped. “I… IthinkI’minlovewithyou”, he blurted out quickly.
Kazuya blinked and frowned a bit before his face shone up with a bright smile.
“Really?” he said excitedly and Jin nodded. “I’m in love with you too.”
Jin blinked dazedly and stared at Kazuya in shock. Kazuya smiled and pulled Jin into an embrace to which, after a second, Jin responded, wrapping his arms around the younger boy’s waist.
“I’m really happy”, Jin whispered into Kazuya’s ear.
“Me too”, Kazuya sighed happily, “me too.”
***
Kazuya cursed the mattresses that covered the wall underneath them. He wanted to bang his head bloody but all his head met was softness. Everything was too soft, he didn’t deserve it. He clawed on the mattresses and sobbed helplessly.
“Why?” he sniffled. “Why did I do it?”
***
“I think we should keep it a secret”, Kazuya said and looked up at a frowning Jin.
“Why should we?” Jin asked. “Don’t you trust them?”
“Of course I trust them but I don’t know how they’d react…”
Jin wrapped his arms around the younger boy’s waist and rested his forehead against his, sighing softly.
“If you don’t think we should tell them, then we won’t.”
“Thank you Jin”, Kazuya said and leaned up to bring their lips together in a sweet and innocent kiss.
***
Kazuya giggled uncontrollably, he just couldn’t stop. He saw blood dripping down the walls and it amused him to no end. The blood coloured everything around him in red and he spun around and around until he saw a familiar face among the blood. He shivered and sank to his knees, crying but still giggling.
“Never again… never again.”
***
With the drama and all of the promotions he had to do, Kazuya had become quite exhausted. Jin was worried about how thin the younger boy had become so he decided to cook for him.
Jin cursed as he accidentally cut his hand and he was about to bring his hand to his mouth when Kazuya grabbed his wrist.
Kazuya smirked as he licked Jin's bleeding hand and Jin shivered. He was sure that he saw something evil in the usually so sweet brown eyes of his boyfriend. But when he looked again it was gone and Jin thought that it was probably just his imagination.
“You have to be careful Jin”, Kazuya said with concern.
“Yeah, I’m sorry”, Jin said and Kazuya laughed.
“You don’t have to apologise, you idiot.”
***
Kazuya was forced into a straightjacket before he could go to the visiting room where his former band mates waited for him.
“Hey Kame”, Koki said softly but Kazuya just stared at him with expressionless eyes as he sat down, facing them.
“How are you doing?” Junno asked and Kazuya’s lips formed a twisted smile.
“How do you think I’m doing?” he asked and giggled maniacally, a sound that made the four others’ blood freeze.
“Uh… are you treated well?” Yuichi asked and Kazuya stopped giggling and looked at him sadly.
“I’m not here most of the time”, Kazuya said and his eyes were completely clear. “They lock me up inside.”
“Who does?” Tatsuya asked frowning.
“The voices… everything in there is covered in blood.”
Kazuya cried and looked at them imploringly.
“Please make him go away!”
“Who do you want us to take away?” Koki asked.
“The other Kazuya.”
The others could only stare at him helplessly.
***
Kazuya writhed underneath Jin and threw his head back, moaning loudly.
“Oh Jin, harder!”
Jin complied and Kazuya felt as if he was going to break from the pleasure he was feeling. He dug his nails into Jin’s forearms almost hard enough to draw blood. The older man hissed but he didn’t complain as he thrust into Kazuya again and again.
Soon they both went over the edge and Kazuya bit down on Jin’s shoulder and felt the taste of blood on his tongue. He moaned at the wonderful taste and licked up every drop of blood before his eyes widened.
“I’m so sorry Jin!” he said terrified and scrambled away from under the other man.
“It’s okay Kazuya”, Jin said and tried to catch Kazuya in an embrace but the younger man wrapped the sheets around him and fled out of the bed.
“I’m so sorry, so sorry, so sorry”, Kazuya repeated as a mantra and sank to the floor, his body trembling.
He didn’t move away when Jin joined him on the floor and embraced him tightly.
“We’ll get through this”, Jin whispered soothingly.
***
Kazuya stared up at the ceiling but he didn’t see it, all he could see was his lover’s face.
“Jin”, he whispered with a shaky voice. “Please, please tell me that everything’s okay. Please tell me that we can get through this together too. Make it all okay again…”
Kazuya hugged his pillow and buried his face in it, staining it with his tears.
***
“Kazu, I can’t take the pressure anymore”, Jin said as they sat in Kazuya’s kitchen facing each other. “I’ve decided to leave for awhile.”
“Leave?” Kazuya said frowning. “Do you mean… leave me?”
“No! I just mean, I want to take a break and go away for awhile. A break from the entertainment industry. But I still love you Kazuya, I always will.”
“Where will you go?”
“To America to study the language”, Jin said. “I’ve already talked to Johnny about it and he said that it’s okay.”
Kazuya’s eyes widened.
“You asked him without even telling me?” he asked and tears formed in his eyes.
“I didn’t want to say anything in case it wouldn’t happen… I didn’t want to cause you unnecessary pain.”
Kazuya scoffed and his lips formed a bloodcurdling smile. Jin stiffened, it wasn’t his Kazuya anymore. He slowly got up from his chair and tried to back out of the kitchen but Kazuya was faster. He grabbed a big knife lying on the counter and jumped on Jin, sending them both to the floor.
“I’ll never let you leave me”, Kazuya said as he straddled Jin who was wincing; he’d hit his head badly in the fall and blood was forming a small puddle on the floor. “You’re mine Jin, mine!”
Kazuya raised his hand with the knife and before Jin could even blink the knife was buried in his chest.
“Kazuya”, he said and coughed up some blood before he continued weakly, “I still love you. I’ll… always love you.”
His breathing stopped and his eyes became unseeing.
***
Kazuya was supposed to meet Tatsuya for lunch. However, when he didn’t come or answer his phone, Tatsuya decided to go to Kazuya’s apartment.
There was no answer when Tatsuya rang the doorbell but he tried to open the door; it slid open easily and he stepped inside, frowning. What he saw there made him wish that he hadn’t entered.
Kazuya was straddling Jin who had a gaping hole in his chest.
Tatsuya stood frozen in shock, staring at the smirking Kazuya.
“This”, Kazuya said, indicating the heart he held in his hand, “is mine forever.”
***
Kazuya had a serene smile on his face as he looked at the man standing in front of him.
“You came for me”, he said.
“I’ll save you from him.”
Kazuya stretched his hand out to the man who took it and led him out through the wall, out into the sun.
They left the other Kazuya behind, the Kazuya that was currently grinning maniacally as he dug his nails into his own flesh.
“I love you”, Kazuya said.
“I love you too, sweetheart.”
Jin turned his head around to smile at Kazuya.