you guys ready for a deep one?
i can't believe the time has come. i'm a senior. it's rediculous. i guess i am in "comteplation mode" thinking about my previous high school years. i can't believe how i let aaron treat me. i can't believe all the different friends i have had, and still have. and i can't believe that i have lost some of the friends that are the closest to me. i felt like i lost everything when i basically lost lindsey. i didn't think things could get much worse. then i lost aaron. i honestly thought my life was over. then i lost aubree. and now i am wondering what else i could possible lose. oh ya i know. all those things DONT MATTER anymore. i guess i will just take the good times i had with those people and try and salvage what is left of my friendships with them. i am so happy now. i have the most amazing boyfriend. i know i have said that before, and maybe this time ISN'T DIFFERENT. but for the first time, i am not going to think about the end, and just think about how amazing things are right now. i am not going to waste my time being insecure, or paranoid, or jealous. love is NEVER insecure, paranoid, or jealous. i have never felt more alone than this time in my life, but at the same time, i have never felt so self-reliant. although i am basically alone, i have the best thing in the world. God and myself. that's all i need.
"i'll NEVER let this go. i can't find the words to tell you, i don't want to be alone, but now i feel like i don't know you. let this go, let me go".
"i'll NEVER let this go. i can't find the words to tell you, i don't want to be alone, but now i feel like i don't know you. let this go, let me go".