time for bed
well, today has been an off day
altogether for me, i am ready to go to bed at this very moment, yet
all at the same time just very upset and cannot bring my self to do it.
It seems that i cannot watch or read Girl, Interrupted because it upsets me to much when i do, i have not figured out why this happens or what exactly happens. I watched it last night as i was folding clothes by myself. I had to do a bit of spring cleaning before, well before spring really comes upon us. i think that i am really ready for school to be over and for, well honestly, life to change.
I know that it will not really change that much; that when i am unhappy i will be still be unhappy, whether or not i am in school. but some how not being in high school seems to make me think, even if just for a moment that my life will be better, that i will be happier, and that my problems will go away.
i think i have become more sensitive and yet more dull to things that hurt my feelings.
i need a job.
i need a therapist.
i need to go to bed
It seems that i cannot watch or read Girl, Interrupted because it upsets me to much when i do, i have not figured out why this happens or what exactly happens. I watched it last night as i was folding clothes by myself. I had to do a bit of spring cleaning before, well before spring really comes upon us. i think that i am really ready for school to be over and for, well honestly, life to change.
I know that it will not really change that much; that when i am unhappy i will be still be unhappy, whether or not i am in school. but some how not being in high school seems to make me think, even if just for a moment that my life will be better, that i will be happier, and that my problems will go away.
i think i have become more sensitive and yet more dull to things that hurt my feelings.
i need a job.
i need a therapist.
i need to go to bed