argh, fic, argh
I have just finished writing my first genderswitch story, and I can't decide if I want to post it or not. I wrote it for a prompt on comment_fic, but it got way too long, which means they probably won't index it. The rules say that it's okay to post an excerpt with a link, but the last time I did that they never indexed it, so I guess it didn't count.
It's also a talky kind of fic, and I'm not sure I like it.
But most of the reason I'm not sure I want to post this fic is because it's not really about Guy and Kyle. It's about Kyle and someone who used to be Guy, but who isn't really Guy any more. And I don't mean that in a trans-phobic way. I mean that in the same way I mean that I'm not the same person I was four years ago. In the story, Guy never got transformed back after he turned into Gal. Which means that he went through a pretty life changing experience. Gal Gardner in the story is a different person than Guy Gardner, the character we know. I feel like I wrote Kyle and an OC. Maybe if I'd written the whole transition person I'd feel different, but this story is just a small slice of time long after Guy had dealt with his change into Gal. If someone else had written it and I'd just read it, I don't think I'd like it, because it doesn't feel like a Guy and Kyle story.
*frustrated* How is it that this has happened to me with my fic again? I feel like I wasted more than two hours of writing. Again! I don't want my writing to make me unhappy, damn it. The fact that I can't use it to get more Guy/Kyle indexed on comment_fic just makes the time feel even more wasted, since that was why I picked this prompt to write tonight in the first place.
It's also a talky kind of fic, and I'm not sure I like it.
But most of the reason I'm not sure I want to post this fic is because it's not really about Guy and Kyle. It's about Kyle and someone who used to be Guy, but who isn't really Guy any more. And I don't mean that in a trans-phobic way. I mean that in the same way I mean that I'm not the same person I was four years ago. In the story, Guy never got transformed back after he turned into Gal. Which means that he went through a pretty life changing experience. Gal Gardner in the story is a different person than Guy Gardner, the character we know. I feel like I wrote Kyle and an OC. Maybe if I'd written the whole transition person I'd feel different, but this story is just a small slice of time long after Guy had dealt with his change into Gal. If someone else had written it and I'd just read it, I don't think I'd like it, because it doesn't feel like a Guy and Kyle story.
*frustrated* How is it that this has happened to me with my fic again? I feel like I wasted more than two hours of writing. Again! I don't want my writing to make me unhappy, damn it. The fact that I can't use it to get more Guy/Kyle indexed on comment_fic just makes the time feel even more wasted, since that was why I picked this prompt to write tonight in the first place.