bitching and whining
Okay, this is me bitching about two minor things, but I just need to vent.
I just now realized two things.
(1) I haven't written an ncis_flashfic story yet, and the challenge closes in four hours.
(2) I haven't exercised today and the gym closes at 6pm. It takes half an hour to get there and 50 minutes to work out, so I'm shit out of luck.
GOD DAMN IT!
I was so fucking good this entire holiday! I worked out every day except Christmas day, when everything was closed! I went running out in the cold last night because the gym was open such short hours I couldn't get there in time! And now I'm going to miss working out on the last fucking day before I go back to work, which makes it way, way easier to keep on schedule. I can't even go for a run; today was supposed to be a weight training day. I have no weights at home. All the stores close early, so I can't even go buy weights or resistance bands.
Also, I still have time to make the ncis_flashfic deadline...but I'm not sure I want to. I've met something like 52 challenges in a show, but I'm not really interested in the fandom any more and I'm not sure it's a good thing for me, in terms of creative happiness, to grind out a story just to keep that streak going. It has to end sometime? But do I make this decision in the next four hours? *headdesk* It would be a nice clean end, to stop now. I would have met all the challenge due up to the end of 2007 and then just stopping as of 2008. But...but... I don't know. *sighs*
Great way to start the new year, CQ. *snorts at self*
But it's mostly the exercise that pisses me off. I was so fucking proud of myself. And then I blow it on the last day. ARGH!
ETA: I have just discovered that the Fitness World near my home is open until 9pm tonight. Am I desperate enough to risk the meat market that is a commercial gym? I suspect the answer is yes. Wish me luck...
ETA: Have just realized that in order to do my workout tonight at said gym, I must either do my flashfic right now, or not do it at all. Oh dear. I have no bunnies. I have no motivation. This decision may have just been made for me.
I just now realized two things.
(1) I haven't written an ncis_flashfic story yet, and the challenge closes in four hours.
(2) I haven't exercised today and the gym closes at 6pm. It takes half an hour to get there and 50 minutes to work out, so I'm shit out of luck.
GOD DAMN IT!
I was so fucking good this entire holiday! I worked out every day except Christmas day, when everything was closed! I went running out in the cold last night because the gym was open such short hours I couldn't get there in time! And now I'm going to miss working out on the last fucking day before I go back to work, which makes it way, way easier to keep on schedule. I can't even go for a run; today was supposed to be a weight training day. I have no weights at home. All the stores close early, so I can't even go buy weights or resistance bands.
Also, I still have time to make the ncis_flashfic deadline...but I'm not sure I want to. I've met something like 52 challenges in a show, but I'm not really interested in the fandom any more and I'm not sure it's a good thing for me, in terms of creative happiness, to grind out a story just to keep that streak going. It has to end sometime? But do I make this decision in the next four hours? *headdesk* It would be a nice clean end, to stop now. I would have met all the challenge due up to the end of 2007 and then just stopping as of 2008. But...but... I don't know. *sighs*
Great way to start the new year, CQ. *snorts at self*
But it's mostly the exercise that pisses me off. I was so fucking proud of myself. And then I blow it on the last day. ARGH!
ETA: I have just discovered that the Fitness World near my home is open until 9pm tonight. Am I desperate enough to risk the meat market that is a commercial gym? I suspect the answer is yes. Wish me luck...
ETA: Have just realized that in order to do my workout tonight at said gym, I must either do my flashfic right now, or not do it at all. Oh dear. I have no bunnies. I have no motivation. This decision may have just been made for me.