It's the Most Horrible Time...Of the Year...
Wanna know a Piper secret? ...I have a secret luff for Daft Punk music...MAKE FUN AND I'LL BITE YOU TILL YOU BLEED!!!!
So 4 days till my b-day...I am now so thankful for booze but am scared that my oncoming new freedom will lead me back to alchoholism b/c its always the first thing on my mind when I get too stressed out, pissed, or depressed...I can say I have been a good girl b/c there's booze in my room and I havn't touched it nomatter how badly I thought I wanted to...
My Mum sent my prezzie...an aladdin mcdonalds toy, earmuffs,funkypurple throw, and a card full of pics of some of my now dead pets from my childhood...(*sniffle* poor poor Krychek...one of the best animal friends I had was a rat that insisted on sleeping in my cleavage wif her lil head poking out..a funny site I must say...rofl)
Thanks a million Mum...just what I needed...well the earmuffs are nice but i feel like a dork wearing 'em heehee...
Seems only peeps I have back home are Ronnie and Steph though I'm pretty much outta the loop with 'em both and Steph is dissappearing too...
Guess I shouldn't call it "back home" actually lol...
Keep seeing a million things I wanna give people as x-mas prezzies but I get to thinking...since I moved no one's done anything fer moi b-day or christmas and although its better to give than receive it feels to me like I'm just bribing my 'ol buds to pay a lil attention to me or to f*ing talk to me...and thats just low...yes I care about them...yes I'd love to give them anything they wish if I could...but it makes mefeela lil used now..."its okay pay no mind to my feelings over the holidays I just wanna spoil you and pray for a 'thank you' b/c that'd involve you spending a few seconds to say something to me." I've put up with a lot of extremely dishonorable things from people I trusted with my life. Things I'd NEVER dream of doing to them...but come on...I'm not going to bribe ya'll into paying a bit of attention to someone you called a friend and claimed you cared about...
If out of sight out of mind works for you then...Merry Fucking Christmas
Adahy got to play in snow for the first time...only for a few seconds though as I didn't want him to get cold although he had a snowsuit on n then some lol...it was fun...he seemed fascinated...
Okay something Ronnie said to put in journal...this'll be a nice thing to know...b/c I'm starting to wonder in many cases:
Why am I on your friends list?
And since I don't get to check this thing regularly it could be f*ing x-mas before I can see it again...*growl*...soOOOooOoo...
HAPPY FUCKING THANKSGIVING AND HUGS FOR ALL!!!!!!! *HUGS*
EAT TILL YOU POP...I COMMAND IT!!!!!!
So 4 days till my b-day...I am now so thankful for booze but am scared that my oncoming new freedom will lead me back to alchoholism b/c its always the first thing on my mind when I get too stressed out, pissed, or depressed...I can say I have been a good girl b/c there's booze in my room and I havn't touched it nomatter how badly I thought I wanted to...
My Mum sent my prezzie...an aladdin mcdonalds toy, earmuffs,funkypurple throw, and a card full of pics of some of my now dead pets from my childhood...(*sniffle* poor poor Krychek...one of the best animal friends I had was a rat that insisted on sleeping in my cleavage wif her lil head poking out..a funny site I must say...rofl)
Thanks a million Mum...just what I needed...well the earmuffs are nice but i feel like a dork wearing 'em heehee...
Seems only peeps I have back home are Ronnie and Steph though I'm pretty much outta the loop with 'em both and Steph is dissappearing too...
Guess I shouldn't call it "back home" actually lol...
Keep seeing a million things I wanna give people as x-mas prezzies but I get to thinking...since I moved no one's done anything fer moi b-day or christmas and although its better to give than receive it feels to me like I'm just bribing my 'ol buds to pay a lil attention to me or to f*ing talk to me...and thats just low...yes I care about them...yes I'd love to give them anything they wish if I could...but it makes mefeela lil used now..."its okay pay no mind to my feelings over the holidays I just wanna spoil you and pray for a 'thank you' b/c that'd involve you spending a few seconds to say something to me." I've put up with a lot of extremely dishonorable things from people I trusted with my life. Things I'd NEVER dream of doing to them...but come on...I'm not going to bribe ya'll into paying a bit of attention to someone you called a friend and claimed you cared about...
If out of sight out of mind works for you then...Merry Fucking Christmas
Adahy got to play in snow for the first time...only for a few seconds though as I didn't want him to get cold although he had a snowsuit on n then some lol...it was fun...he seemed fascinated...
Okay something Ronnie said to put in journal...this'll be a nice thing to know...b/c I'm starting to wonder in many cases:
Why am I on your friends list?
And since I don't get to check this thing regularly it could be f*ing x-mas before I can see it again...*growl*...soOOOooOoo...
HAPPY FUCKING THANKSGIVING AND HUGS FOR ALL!!!!!!! *HUGS*
EAT TILL YOU POP...I COMMAND IT!!!!!!