Dec 09, 2003 18:47
do you know what it feels like dying?
well knowing that someone is dying for you, i bet the feeling is great
knowing that id give up everything for you, since i have already, and you wont fucking return my phone calls, you'll fucking call my best friend, since she knows everything about life and all.stop this. its fucking pathetic, and if i were you. id be nice as hell, its my choice what i do or not. so fucking be there for me no matter what.be a fucking man. be what you've always wanted too, make people proud. make yourself proud.be fucking happy and stop hurting me. stop making me want to die each night when i get off the phone with you, i tried last night i admit it.you dont love me. im here only for one thing. and thats acceptence from you! im here only to be here for you-so return the favor. and stick up for me. im in so much pain.\you dont know the half of it.how would you like it if the love of your life wants to hook up with your best friend? yeah you wouldnt be laughing then.now would you? you'd want to die,but not as bad as i do.i want to prove to you how much i love you. how much i put up with everything.how much i care for you.how much i think your the most beautiful fucking person ever. i bet no one thinks your the most beautiful person ever, no one thinks your the perfect man alive.i bet no one would ever like your mouth,eyes,nose,tummy, everything like i do. like i dream about touching you again, like i dream about you wispering you love me. and telling me all you want for christmas is me. remember?remember when we were in publix and you fucking told me never to fucking leave you! remember? remember when you told me you'd never ever fucking leave me.rememember when we used to have so much fucking fun? remember that?well i hope you remember the last time you kissed me.because ill sure as hell never fucking forget. sunday.was the last. yeah, you loved me.you loved me so fucking much.you were there.you were perfect.your making these care free mistakes and there ruining everything,i lie to you to protect you, not to hurt you baby. ill be here for you, for a little bit longer, if you dont start changing.im leaving.im dying.for good this time.no joke about it sweetheart. you'll always look like porn naked.but i bet NO other girl will ever think that.i love you
remember at your fucking party, and your best friend asked you if you loved me and you screamed yes and he told you if you did you'd kiss me there on the spot in front of everyone.and you did, you kissed me on it.you did. and you told me you wanted to be with me forever.and you did. and then someone came along. better than me.and now you cant be with me ever.ever.you lied.you lied to me your best friend.you lied.you kissed on it.your running from love.well baby, its not going anywhere