Weathering the storm
Night before last, I had my worst fit of depression in a long time. I was up most of the night, caught in a tilt-a-whorl of dark, damaging thoughts. I suffer from depression and refuse to take meds for it, because the meds for depression are dangerous and tend to cause damage throughout the body. I view this as not only unacceptable but also criminal.
Anyway, I made it through. I could not stop the thoughts, but I could understand they were part if an inbalance and not part of me. I was able to let my mind run it's course, but know that I did not have to own any of it. It was a good moment for me, a dark serendipity of sorts.
One of my students finished the forging part on a sword he is making. This sword looks the sword of choice if Goblins were also pirates. Leaf shaped blade, tight one handed grip, quillons where the back one curves up and the front one curves down (in a blade up position) It is of integral design (blade, handle, pommel and quillons all carved out of one continuous piece of steel). The blade and hilt will be black with brass highlights and a thin silver edge.
The job search sucks. I love my wife.
Anyway, I made it through. I could not stop the thoughts, but I could understand they were part if an inbalance and not part of me. I was able to let my mind run it's course, but know that I did not have to own any of it. It was a good moment for me, a dark serendipity of sorts.
One of my students finished the forging part on a sword he is making. This sword looks the sword of choice if Goblins were also pirates. Leaf shaped blade, tight one handed grip, quillons where the back one curves up and the front one curves down (in a blade up position) It is of integral design (blade, handle, pommel and quillons all carved out of one continuous piece of steel). The blade and hilt will be black with brass highlights and a thin silver edge.
The job search sucks. I love my wife.