Sing me to sleep
oh well my life isn't too eventful lately. I'm in Spokane and it snowed as my plane came in. Wonderful, snow?! Really now. But, it didn't stick, it was just a little bit so it's fine. It's just been kinda gloomy out. Which isn't too bad, I like when it rains hard and it's stormy and I like when it's really sunny and warm but I don't like the in between. I like when it's about to rain and I love the smell outside but when it's half warm/cold and half cloudy and gray, it's just ugly. yulk.
I havn't had coffee in 3 days! yes, you may think so what I haven't had coffee in months, well it's different for me and I've been addicted to that stuff for years and I really want to get off it so I'm going to see if I can.
I had lunch with my friend and her boyfriend today and we all hung out and shopped around a little bit. It was weird at lunch because we ended up talking about cars, well how she's thinking about getting a new one and how they both go to Oregon every year and canada and how Ryan and I should go with them and all this. Well, it was only weird in the sense that it made me feel young. I'm still going to school, my parents are still helping me out and paying for school, I don't own a car, have a job, or go on trips with people. I don't talk about moving in with anyone or moving to a different city in a year, I don't talk about politics, current events or my future. I guess I just felt inexperienced and kinda out of the loop of life. Just right now is all about school and I feel so focused on that that there's not time for any of that in my life when I feel there should be time. I think about getting an apartment but then it might be too much for my parents and the dorms would just have to do. I really don't want to live there anymore but if I have to then I have to.
I guess I just feel like I can't support myself when I should at least be helping out or supporting something. Like paying my own bills or having an apartment of my own with some PRIVACY for once. :sigh: ahh. It's like I'm 20 and I never cook for myself, clean anything, pay bills, go grocery shopping or anything I feel like I should be doing at this age. I know it's different for everyone but the independence I crave will have to wait.
I think I'm going to get a haircut tomorrow. Well, we'll see if I can I'm so sick of it right now. It's dull and blah. Yuck. I can never get it too short because then it'll frizz out and get poofy and uggggly, but then if it's too long it weighs my head down and then if it's in between those two it looks funny. So I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place. But whatever I do, it'll grow back so I'm not too worried, but still I am. oh we'll just see.
I havn't had coffee in 3 days! yes, you may think so what I haven't had coffee in months, well it's different for me and I've been addicted to that stuff for years and I really want to get off it so I'm going to see if I can.
I had lunch with my friend and her boyfriend today and we all hung out and shopped around a little bit. It was weird at lunch because we ended up talking about cars, well how she's thinking about getting a new one and how they both go to Oregon every year and canada and how Ryan and I should go with them and all this. Well, it was only weird in the sense that it made me feel young. I'm still going to school, my parents are still helping me out and paying for school, I don't own a car, have a job, or go on trips with people. I don't talk about moving in with anyone or moving to a different city in a year, I don't talk about politics, current events or my future. I guess I just felt inexperienced and kinda out of the loop of life. Just right now is all about school and I feel so focused on that that there's not time for any of that in my life when I feel there should be time. I think about getting an apartment but then it might be too much for my parents and the dorms would just have to do. I really don't want to live there anymore but if I have to then I have to.
I guess I just feel like I can't support myself when I should at least be helping out or supporting something. Like paying my own bills or having an apartment of my own with some PRIVACY for once. :sigh: ahh. It's like I'm 20 and I never cook for myself, clean anything, pay bills, go grocery shopping or anything I feel like I should be doing at this age. I know it's different for everyone but the independence I crave will have to wait.
I think I'm going to get a haircut tomorrow. Well, we'll see if I can I'm so sick of it right now. It's dull and blah. Yuck. I can never get it too short because then it'll frizz out and get poofy and uggggly, but then if it's too long it weighs my head down and then if it's in between those two it looks funny. So I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place. But whatever I do, it'll grow back so I'm not too worried, but still I am. oh we'll just see.