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I dont want to do this anymore. I hate that we always fight. And when we don't fight we don't even talk to eachother. I dont know if the distance has just taken its toll or if we've just grown apart. I just know I can't deal with it anymore. I always look forward to when I will see him again and I miss him so much. I know he misses me too. Now I miss him more, but I know that we can't fight anymore. We can't do this anymore. I know Im fucked up and Ive done some fucked up stuff but this isnt all my fault. This has happened before and we've gotten through it.But I dont know about this time. I dont know if we can keep doing this. Can we keep this up and hold on. Everytime we take a break it just seems to tear us apart. Further and further we get from eachother and I dont want to lose him. Dont want to lose him but I cant go on like this. Not with all the fighting and silence. Im sorry. I cant do this anymore...not tonight. Not tonight.