saturday
It is saturday. Woop woop. lol. I love saturdays. Already went to piano lesson and whatnot. It is a cold one out there today. brrr.
Tomorrow my day is completely filled. I wish today was cuz I still need to pray with Amy and Judy. Man o man.
I am so sick of trying to do the right thing. That is what I was doing for so long, you know and then I didn't go to church for awhile and I kind of did what I wanted. Well I've been trying to get back on track but it isn't working too well. My heart is crushed once again. All the hurt is resurfacing. I am so sick of trying to censor myself. I really am...so if you don't like what I have to say, then don't read this. If you don't like what I am saying then you don't like me. What I write reflects me...or most of it anyways.
I think I'm like my brother Grant. I wish I had a guy, I mean it would be nice but I'm mainly just friends with them. They just see me as a friend or something. But I don't completely mind that, its just when they like your best friend it sucks. Man like back in 8th grade, haha but then I just dated their friends so it was a good deal.So anyhow Grant hasn't really dated anyone, he doesn't seem interested in girls just like I'm not interested in guys. David has long relationships and so does Eric. Weird pattern...
I think I've come to the conclusion that family is just awesome. With them you don't have to worry about stupid shit. And if you feel like hitting them you can just because they are family. lol. It's like Robin said, " it's like an understood love.....but we're asses to each other. we show it by cooking each other macaroni."
ok so I am off. I'm gonna go get some food.(mom bought salad and bananas)
:)
Tomorrow my day is completely filled. I wish today was cuz I still need to pray with Amy and Judy. Man o man.
I am so sick of trying to do the right thing. That is what I was doing for so long, you know and then I didn't go to church for awhile and I kind of did what I wanted. Well I've been trying to get back on track but it isn't working too well. My heart is crushed once again. All the hurt is resurfacing. I am so sick of trying to censor myself. I really am...so if you don't like what I have to say, then don't read this. If you don't like what I am saying then you don't like me. What I write reflects me...or most of it anyways.
I think I'm like my brother Grant. I wish I had a guy, I mean it would be nice but I'm mainly just friends with them. They just see me as a friend or something. But I don't completely mind that, its just when they like your best friend it sucks. Man like back in 8th grade, haha but then I just dated their friends so it was a good deal.So anyhow Grant hasn't really dated anyone, he doesn't seem interested in girls just like I'm not interested in guys. David has long relationships and so does Eric. Weird pattern...
I think I've come to the conclusion that family is just awesome. With them you don't have to worry about stupid shit. And if you feel like hitting them you can just because they are family. lol. It's like Robin said, " it's like an understood love.....but we're asses to each other. we show it by cooking each other macaroni."
ok so I am off. I'm gonna go get some food.(mom bought salad and bananas)
:)