its been forever...
so much has gone on since the lat time i updated my livejournal. if you have read all the drama bullshit some annonmus "leo thoren" has written about me you will be happy to know that he is no longer aloud to contact me. i have a boyfriend now, his name is mike and we've been together for about a year now. things are alright, but not as well as i let on to him. i dont think i can ever be happy. i started this journal 4 years ago, and i was just as torn in life as i am now, but now its more complicated than i need it to be... whateve, i think i figured out why i dont use this thing any more.... its boring. but a good vent for me so i will go on. i once wrote about som one i called the poison, well he is a definate part of my life again, and as i have some 'little' repect for him, i wont use his name. icant imagine loving any one the way i loved him so long ago, a d now i'm in a somewhat stable relationship, and i'm the stupid girl who practically begged him back into my life.... i do the worste things all on my own... i'm thinking of moving, it would be a good choice for me, maybe i'll finally get my head straite