i told him everything..........
so i saw him for the first time in months. totally not the easiest thing i've done lately, but it went somewhat well i think. i told him that i love him, then i told him all the shhit i was keeping from him. he deserved to know, i was his buisness and right to know. it wasn't fair to not tell him just because i was scared. he said that if i had told him that everything would have been different, but i hadn't found out waht happened until it was over. alot of death to deal with for one year i think. amanda told me that last friday was bobbby's anniverssary, hse lied, and got me all worked up over nothing. i felt like shit because i thought i forgot, when i didn't. his anniverssay is wed. the 25th, same as his brothers. i hope i'm not alone that day, i don't think i can handle it.