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well, it's thursday. pretty boring, but no more so than usual. i talked to my cousin amanda for a while, i want to castrate her little ex douche bag by the name of randy. if i could get by with it, i would have totally killed him by now. aside from the rantings of me wanting to kill people, everythng is well. i'm hanging out with ryan right now, thought it seems like i'm keeping him from something else he'd much rather be doing. i've noticed how everyone has changed, i don't know how to explain it. i don't know if i like it, it seems like everyone that i thought i knew is a totally different person now. all these people that i thought were my friends are people that i hardly know. it's so easy for people to lie to my face now, and the only people that i do have are no where around. i miss (him) everyday. but it's hard when your so far from the people that you care for. after this year has passed like the last, it will still be the same, so many thoughts in my head to even comprehend just one. sorry that my rantings are just that, rantings, i guess i'm the only one who will ever truly understand them. maybe i'll go home and write some more, until then......