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so, i hate fucking drama. so to you bassjuky, i have no idea what the hell is wronge with you right now, so you can stop with the fuck you's and get over it, i didn't do anything to you, suck it up. if you don't like what i do to my body, thats fine, but just remember, it's my body. so bite me. and to ratswallow, i went fucking nuts trying to figure out who the hell this random person was leaving me messages on my journal, so i''' stab you this weekend for that, as i've already told you about 20 times today. i can make a deal with you though... if you don't make him behave himself around me, i'll only stab you half as much. and FAG... i still hate you, you have so much sucking up to do it's not even funny. so im a size 4, i like shiny things and most of my bod jewlwery is a 14 guage. start sucking. so as for all of that, blah and i'm done. well tomorrow is the birthday fun, i have no idea whose showing up, though i do know who won't be there, stabbing you john, and there are some other people i really wanted here, but i guess i can't always get what i want. god i hate that. blah. david's in a really funky mood today, i should go see if he's okay. i don't know whats wronge, but i have a feeling it has somehting to do with us hanging out last night. i slept in his room, but nothing happened. im past that chapter of my drama. i was feeling like shit, and didn't want to be alone, and though i do share a bed with fawn, it's not quite the same. god i hate drama. i found out what some people around me really think of me last night, and the outcome of their oppinions suck. they suck bad. one person thinks im a complete whore, which i kinda always thought thats what he thought of me, so it was no big suprise, but i guess some more current things, mostly being saturday night, have enduced his outlook on my life and how he sees me. fun times. then 2 of my best friends seem to think im being wreckless with my choices, which i fully believe they should have come to me with this, and not david, they had all day at faire to talk to me, and instead they chose to go to him. that kinda pisses me off, just a little. my actions are my own, therefore i am responsible for what i do. i thank everyone for their concerne, but there really is nothing to be concerned about. i'm not having sex with fifty people, actually, since october, i was with david, and that wasn't even until like even 7 months alter, then i stopped seeing david, and ive only had sex one time since then, so if that makes me a whore and wreckless, fine. im not drinking all the time, got drunk for my pirate annitiation, and we ll know how that went, so, we see why i don't drink often. im not on drugs, i've actually quit every drug i was doing prior to my dating paul, i can't say i've been clean for an entire year, but then again, that wasn't even an all the time thing with me, it was more so a when i was with christina thing, so that wasn't even al that often. so for everyone who seems to think i'm being suck a fucking horrible person, fuck off. obviously your my friends, being tha fact of your concerne, so trust that im not making any brutal choices in my life. you all trust me for some reason, please trust me with this. well thats all i have to say for now. i have some steam i have to go blow now.