dying inside
I need help. My life has completely fallen apart. If it weren't for my family, I would be dead and so would my baby. A week after having Chloe, I began feeling the effects of post-partum depression. Everyday it gets worse. I can barely take care of myself...much less my baby. Greg can't understand me not wanting to take care of the baby or being alone. Most people don't understand. Only those who have experienced it. I have panic attacks everyday. I have no appetite...I barely eat. I am deathly afraid of being alone. My doctor put me on medication, but it will be a month before it begins to work. I just want to disappear. My body feels dead and numb. It hurts to see the pain and confusion in Greg's eyes. He had to call into work to stay with Chloe because I was rocking back and forth in tears before he left. He thinks I should go to Charter Ridge...what will they do to me?!? Why can't these feelings go away? I want to be able to function again. God help me, PLEASE!!