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So the only friends that I have seemed to be guys that liked me, but now that I am dating someone, I have no one to talk to. All my girl fiends are not dating people or too enthused in their own boyfriends to be interested in mine.
so I am going to spew a bunch of crap on here that means nothing to everyone but me.
So. I am happy. REALLY happy. I like everything about him, there is nothing that has bothered me about him yet, and that scares the shit out of me. I care about him so much, but restrain myself from showing emotion, or calling him, or seeing him, because I don't want to scare him away. I don't want him to feel like I am smothering him. He is the first person to find his way into my heart since andy, and it is still so fragile, I don't know if it could take another blow. He is such as sweetheart, so adorable, and has not tried to have sex with me once. I die inside when he kisses me, especially when his arms hold me tight. He holds my hands so carefully and the way he looks at me... it sends chills. I can't stop smiling around him, he makes me feel like a little girl again. I so want to feel love again, I just am so afraid to. I have so much to give, but I don't know how much he wants.
so I am going to spew a bunch of crap on here that means nothing to everyone but me.
So. I am happy. REALLY happy. I like everything about him, there is nothing that has bothered me about him yet, and that scares the shit out of me. I care about him so much, but restrain myself from showing emotion, or calling him, or seeing him, because I don't want to scare him away. I don't want him to feel like I am smothering him. He is the first person to find his way into my heart since andy, and it is still so fragile, I don't know if it could take another blow. He is such as sweetheart, so adorable, and has not tried to have sex with me once. I die inside when he kisses me, especially when his arms hold me tight. He holds my hands so carefully and the way he looks at me... it sends chills. I can't stop smiling around him, he makes me feel like a little girl again. I so want to feel love again, I just am so afraid to. I have so much to give, but I don't know how much he wants.