Hmmm...
Man, I haven't written in this thing in forever! Seriously, but my wife gave me the great idea to start writing in my journal once again. Thank you so much!
Well...For starters, I'm not going to sit in here and recap the summer with everyone, because I just don't feel like trying to write about all that crazyness and drama. Though it was an awesome time, and I don't regret any part of it. I helped someone stay above water for awhile, but then the moment I left, it seemed as though he couldn't swim any longer and was lost to the deep abyss..Oh, just for the hell of it..Here is something I wrote about it.
~Poem~
Why has thou fallen so far?
Can you not pick yourself back up from it?
Was it because you touched heaven, and then it disappeared?
The angel still hovers near, but you do not see.
You are blinded by the darkness of your hole.
Those ivory wings hold the being above,
One feather drifting down to haunt you.
Is that why you can't climb out?
Do you think you tarnished one so pure, one that you never deserved?
No one has answers for you, but yourself.
Figure it out, before you are gone forever in the darkness.
Anyways..I am writing in here for a different reason tonight..Onto that...
Where to begin...Oh yes...Have you ever thought that things were going so great, that you were just waiting for that moment when everything would come crashing down? Well, not everything has come crashing down so to speak..But I did get a big slap in the face of reality when it comes to my relationship with Brian. Really I love him so much, and I don't think I can picture my life without him anymore, he is just such a big part of it. But tonight we kind of had our first real fight. I'm not going into details because that is private and really no one else's business unless I decide to share. Anyways....Brian ships out for 6 months this comming year, and it didn't hit me until now. I mean, I survived on my own without him, I should be able to do it again right? I think this is going to be one of the hardest things that I have ever done..I mean, it's not for like another half year, but once he brought it up I just can't get it out of my mind. I know I shouldn't worry...I have everyone to keep me company and talk to, but for the first time I feel like I'm going to be more alone than I ever have. I guess that depressed emo side is going to flare up and come alive for awhile...Lol. I actually thought I had more to say on this topic..Apparently not..My mind is just so jumbled that it is hard to think straight. This is it then. Feels good to get things out on here again. Love yall!!
Well...For starters, I'm not going to sit in here and recap the summer with everyone, because I just don't feel like trying to write about all that crazyness and drama. Though it was an awesome time, and I don't regret any part of it. I helped someone stay above water for awhile, but then the moment I left, it seemed as though he couldn't swim any longer and was lost to the deep abyss..Oh, just for the hell of it..Here is something I wrote about it.
~Poem~
Why has thou fallen so far?
Can you not pick yourself back up from it?
Was it because you touched heaven, and then it disappeared?
The angel still hovers near, but you do not see.
You are blinded by the darkness of your hole.
Those ivory wings hold the being above,
One feather drifting down to haunt you.
Is that why you can't climb out?
Do you think you tarnished one so pure, one that you never deserved?
No one has answers for you, but yourself.
Figure it out, before you are gone forever in the darkness.
Anyways..I am writing in here for a different reason tonight..Onto that...
Where to begin...Oh yes...Have you ever thought that things were going so great, that you were just waiting for that moment when everything would come crashing down? Well, not everything has come crashing down so to speak..But I did get a big slap in the face of reality when it comes to my relationship with Brian. Really I love him so much, and I don't think I can picture my life without him anymore, he is just such a big part of it. But tonight we kind of had our first real fight. I'm not going into details because that is private and really no one else's business unless I decide to share. Anyways....Brian ships out for 6 months this comming year, and it didn't hit me until now. I mean, I survived on my own without him, I should be able to do it again right? I think this is going to be one of the hardest things that I have ever done..I mean, it's not for like another half year, but once he brought it up I just can't get it out of my mind. I know I shouldn't worry...I have everyone to keep me company and talk to, but for the first time I feel like I'm going to be more alone than I ever have. I guess that depressed emo side is going to flare up and come alive for awhile...Lol. I actually thought I had more to say on this topic..Apparently not..My mind is just so jumbled that it is hard to think straight. This is it then. Feels good to get things out on here again. Love yall!!