Ventilation time...

[crimson_tears_]

Ok so i dont know what to trust with people. I want whats real. I want people to tell me the truth about what they feel. I dont want anymore hollow "i miss you"s. Sometimes i feel like i drift apart from friends i am really close to and there is no explanation but now i think i have found a reason that might have been overlooked. We all know i can be an intimidating person and that i guess that makes people afraid to tell me things... then we end up as this place where communication halts and we have nowhere to go with our relationships but backwards. I cant even imagine how many "best friends" and "close friends" i have had that may have hid their true feelings from me now. I know ali doesnt and thats why we have lasted so long i beleive. We say everything and dont hide things just because we are afraid of the outcome. Actually the people i know that are still there all have done that for me. being gone for this year has stressed to me how important honesty is. And how important relationships are. I miss so many of you in ways you cant even imagine.

So if u want to start over with me or even just continue where we left off when i come home then let me know. Because i will be searching for those of you who are ready for a REAL friendship with me.

i love you all,
trish