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the craziest week of my life.
monday- off school.
tuesday- woke up at 3 in the morning to be at school by 4:30. i was on the news&&then me and trags ate donuts and talked. then i found out at lunch, russell died :( oh my gosh.. i started crying..this is the person i was talking about in my other entry who i saw at my bus stop..the boy who i went to elem school with& we thought we were in love with each other in like third grade..aww..my best friend who i would take walks with& was the sweetest boy ever.. i love him forever. <3 but then, i got home&found out i got into Carver, which is awesome but i didnt really care cause we were on our way to go to the funeral home to see russell..aww there was this big collage of him&all these pictures when he was little and stuff..hes such a awesome boy..really..it was really hard to see all these people from school crying¬ knowing what to do..i never would have expected this to happen. not to russell, not now. not when he just turned 14..i'm trying to think of it the best as i can. russel may not be with us anymore, but hes in heaven now& i prayed to God alot and asked him to take care of him& asked my mom to watch him while hes up there..that made me feel better about things.. i mean really, being in heaven has to be way more awesome than being down here.
wed- my birthday. big whoop. who cares. school was stupid but i did get to leave early for the show in VA. my cousin shane picked up me&trags and we went to taco bell..then we got there 3 hours early..lmfao. it was awesome. we talked to chicks in front of us&they were like "whoa i thought you were like 16!!" im like nope my birthday is today..& they were like "aw happy birthday!!" really nice people..then i met this emo chick who was making fun of this girl who cuts herself. haha funny stuff..i've never seen so many emo boys in my life. ohboy& i loved it. then we went to the show&accidentily got pit tickets..whoops ;D umm..then we saw A static lullaby&they were good. i felt bad though cause they went on first..then underOATH omg..the keyboard guy was going insane..then senses fail.omg..i've never seen a guy be sexier than buddy!! i was talking to rachel i was like "i want to have your fucking babies buddy.." lmao...then killswitch engage but me&trags walked around during that cause i dont like them then we went to the IP booth for underOATH signings but MCR was about to come on so we left&didnt get to meet them.then MCR..awesome!!! &&then we went back to the IP boothe& i met james smith!! ilovehim. i was like "james!"&he looked over&smiled and the drummer of the band was like in front of him&he made a weird face like i do with my lip&nose..it was cute. then we took a picture&he gave me a hug..i had to like reach up cause hes so tall. hes like a big beast of sex. its great..wow thats a really weird expression..lmfao..but he was really nice&shook shanes hand cause he was with us watching, so it showed he had respect and all for him..it was nice. then we walked around&shane took rachel home, then me. it was the funnest, awesomest birthday ever.
thursday&friday-off school..friday i went to the mall with brooke&it was really fun. brooke is awesome& i always have fun hanging out with her. then she came home&she spent the night.
today(saturday)-nana&pop came over for dinner&we all ate then i went to chel's and then we went to the movies to see Cursed. it was awesome..then i came home and talked to farlow&brian. it was fun..
now i'm tired& i have to clean tommarow still&do homework&then melissa is coming over. OMG!!MELISSA GOT INTO CARVER TOO!! &SAM DID FOR VISUAL ARTS! hes a beast at drawing..he always draws me little dudes on my binder in science cause he sits next to me&we get bored..lol carver is gonna be so awesome next year. i'm hoping theres a bi, emo boy waiting for me..&some random emo kids&gay guys to be my friends. yesssssss.
love,
beka bear. <3