don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say..

[crimson_starx3]

i should be cleaning my room.
instead, i'm listening to Avril Lavigne & crying.
i hate this. last night, my friends were over & i was so happy. but, then i just had to start thinking about guys and now its just lame. i don't know whats wrong with me. i can't figure it out. i don't know why people lie about their feelings. i don't know why people act fake, or like someone doesn't deserve them. i don't understand why i care so much about people who don't give a fuck about me. i don't understand how you can say such meaningful words, and mean nothing at all. i don't know why i sit alone and cry when everyone else is off having fun. i don't understand how people can just brush people off like they do not matter, what so ever. i don't know how people can say something that hurts someone and try to defend it when confronted. i don't understand how people can say "youre my best friend" and not give a fuck when that person has a problem. i don't know why some people were born so beautiful that it hurts. i don't know why guys think with their dicks & don't use their hearts. i hate when people make decisions that affect others, with no regard for them what so ever. i hate how words only mean so much.
i don't know, understand, or hate him.