on my mind.

[crimson_noise]

im sick and every time I get up I get dizzy or cough up a lung. I usually only get like this twice a year: once in the fall and once in the spring. It will pass. Crash is a very good movie. More movies should be made that well. Today I had a really good burrito, my first burrito since the middle/beginning of summer i believe. Today Emily and I bought stacey sweatpants for her birthday. Most people would think thats a sucky gift, but knowing stacey she will probably think there is nothing better. I think I have good intuition about things. In psychology we learned about hindsight bias. That is the tendency to believe that after knowing the outcome of a situation it could have been foreseen. I dont think this really mixes with intuition though. Psychology makes me think too much. But I guess that's the whole idea. I really want to go take some pictures of campus, because it is fall and the leaves and blah blah...but it's pretty. But I will probably forget to do this. Today I felt like everyone seemed so distant. I wanted to talk to all these people and didnt, nobody returned calls etc. Oh well. I took my first spanish test and I know I wont do well but for some reason it isnt haunting me like a bad grade normally would. I really want to try in that class for some reason, like it is my mission to suddenly become bilingual. As of late I have an obsession with wearing lots of layered clothes that do not match. I could say there is technique to this but really it is me picking out 3 shirts I want to wear and instead of choosing one I layer them all. I think im at a very interesting place right now. I talked to my grandma on the phone today and she said she was proud of me for being happy at school. I dont know if it's good that being happy has to be an accomplishment. But either way life feels all right. But like I said im just in this interesting state where things are falling into place one way or another and I honestly dont know what is going to happen but I feel okay about it.

i have to go give my head a rest.
love. and goodnight.