.it's not MY fault.
I HATE MY JOB!! Ok, i feel better. & I suppose I don't really hate it, Im just getting extremely fed up with it right now. Why? Because it seems like i keep skipping out on work when I REALLY DON'T. I've never been one to just "not show up" to work when I was scheduled to- that's not me! But for the second time now, that's what it's gonna look like and idk what Im supposed to do about it- i NEED this job. So here's what happened, Jasmine (hah, ironically the same girl from the last work vent) sent out an e-mail to everyone in our "group" (we have groups at work, but that's not important) asking if people could take her shifts this w/e because she was going home in chicago. I sent an e-mail back telling her i could probably work her 6p-10p on Sunday night because I should be back in time to do that (at the time I thought i was still gonna be at the poker run, hence why I couldn't work my own 10a-2p that day) & since she had asked to switch shifts, I said she could work my 2p-6p this friday to make up the hours. I found out i would be back in time, so I called her the next day telling her i could work he shift so she thanked me & said she would put it in the shift change log & i'd sign it on Sunday when i came to work. All is fine, at least i thought. I arrive to the desk to work a little before 6 & Jenny tells me I was supposed to be there at 2. Huh?? Im extremely confused. Jenny shows me the shift change log & Jasmine had written i was working her 2p-6p today and Reggie was working the 6p-10p shift. Apparently Claire, who was working until 2, realized I didn't show up so called Jenny & asked if she would work. Not a big deal, the shift got covered, but once again, it looks like I was skipping out on something i said i'd do. And i wasn't. I was there at 6, just as I thought i had to be, it's not my fault she thought i was covering a different shift- why would i have asked to take that shift? I knew i wouldn't have been back in time for my own shift, so i wanted to work a later one. But for some reason, i have the feeling that Im going to be the one that gets in trouble for this whole thing- even thought none of it was my fault!!! UGH Im so frustrated, i HATE HATE HATE being in trouble with work & it always seems to happen to me for crap i didn't even do. They're gonna tell me that i should've checked the shift change log & made sure what shift i was working, but no one even looks at that thing. If someone asks you to take their shift, & you agree, you don't really think that they'll write down a different shift than what you said you'd work. Im not saying i'll get fired or anything, but i prolly won't be asked to come back & work next summer, which i REALLY need. I can't afford to pay for housing over the summer but i need to re-take some classes and summer classes have tended to be easier for me so that's what i was going to do. I seriously don't know what to do to make them believe me- this is Jasmine's second year as a CA so she already has higher authority than i do. It's not fair, why does this keep happening to me?? I mean it doesn't make sense, why would i say i'd take a shift & then just not show up? That's stupid. Im supposed to have a meeting sometime with my manager this week to talk about it (I already sent him an e-mail right after it happened explaining my side) but im scared. And i don't get scared- not with work anyway. But i am, i really can't afford to lose this job & i know im automatically thinking the worst but last time they sided with Jasmine for that check-in (when i told her i MIGHT be there, and she wrote it down as saying i WOULD be there.. so it looked like i committed to it & then just didn't show up..) & i don't want to get in trouble again. If anyone can offer some advice on what to say/do the might convince them that i really was supposed to work the 6p-10p shift (i'd show them the e-mail i sent telling her that but im stupid & i deleted it..) So im stuck. And i have no clue what to do about it.