i wonder what # journal this is?

[crimson_epic]

today i woke up at 3, felt pretty good. I got this feeling when i woke up, a feeling of just being alone and not talking to anybody. that is why i like closing ush. i dont get to talk to anybody most of the time, i just get to think alot and space out.I cant wait till i move up to projection, then i will really be alone and not talk to annoying people, i can just be by myself. I feel like closing up staying to my self. i know projection is goona be hard but i guess it will be worth it. I'm not trying to be mean to anybody,its just, i guess there is a time in my life where i dont feel like i need to talk to anybody, well i guess some people. i just dont want to be so social like i am, or i use to be. I guess it will not be that hard, i dont have many friends, half of them dont like me( i think cause i think i am weird). It will be really cool when i get my car, licsens or no licsens i am driving. then i can just drive away around 2 or 4 in the morning and just be by myself, music blasting. i know it will be risky but what the hell.
on saterday i went to go get my tattoo, that i didnt get, well until thrusday. they just pasponed it cause the guy said he didnt have anymore needles. so that kinda pissed me off. but at least i am getting it. After that, this will be my last tattoo for a long time cause i got to save up money for my car.
I hate fucking colds, i dont know how i caught it but i did and it is pissing me off. i hate colds. i felt really shity today at work because of it and i didnt feel like doing nothing, i just wanted to sleep more. sleeping is good. i think i am gonna do that now. peace be the journy.....