the eternal path to or away from God.

[crimson_child]

I don't know how to deal with the possibility of people being eternally damned. It seems so wrong, so terrible, so intense. I don't understand. Yet even if there is the slightest possibility of that happening to our souls and bodies, we should be on guard at all times to not allow for it to, to not be focused on this life but on that which is to come. We have been given everything to learn and know what to do in this life, yet we choose to ignore it and disobey God's commandments - how could we possibly be so ignorant? Why do we choose ignorance and possible damnation over God's love and the possibility for eternal happiness and joy? It makes no sense to me. I don't understand. We should be lifting each other and ourselves out of sin and out of the depths - or possibilities of - at all times, holding each other, comforting each other, supporting each other, loving each other. I am so very afraid of the gravity of our situation, should we choose the path away from God. Death could come at any moment. Yet how do I help others and myself seek the truth, love, seek unity with God and the grace of the Holy Spirit? Especially when I keep falling, stumbling, tempted and tormented by the physical "pleasures" of this life? How do I keep from judging others and instead love them and help them? And without being or coming across as "Holier-than-thou", because I am definitely not that, as I've proven time and time again.

November 2002

[not sure of exact date; backdating on 8.20.08]