The Heart Wants What It Wants
I've come to the conclusion that I date the wrong guys. I'm not saying I'm one of those people who always dates assholes, because I definitely go for the sweet guys. But lately I seem to have two patterns when it comes to men: 1) I go for guys who are not as strong-willed as me or, as my mom said, who are in some way weaker then me and 2) I go for guys who can't seem to give me what I want. In this sense I mean that I always seem to end up giving all of myself while the guy does not. I seem to be the one compromising and doing anything in my power to be with them while I usually end up being taken for granted. It is never mutual.
So why this sudden revolution? Well, besides thinking on past experiences, its because of my current situation. I have had a crush on Sam for a while now, even though he can sometimes treat me like I'm disposable and I go out of my way when he doesn't. Meanwhile, there is a perfectly sweet and amazing guy Rob who likes me, and yet I have no attraction to him. I want to stop liking Sam but, even more, I really wish I liked Rob. So what the hell is wrong with me?
So why this sudden revolution? Well, besides thinking on past experiences, its because of my current situation. I have had a crush on Sam for a while now, even though he can sometimes treat me like I'm disposable and I go out of my way when he doesn't. Meanwhile, there is a perfectly sweet and amazing guy Rob who likes me, and yet I have no attraction to him. I want to stop liking Sam but, even more, I really wish I liked Rob. So what the hell is wrong with me?